I'm beat
Iknow I know its been a long time....
I'm beat.... emotionally....It's crazy how things can change so quickly. From normal, to great, down to um what was that before, normal? um not so normal any more. Is it crazy though? For something to change so soon to great. Is that natural? Is it God's will? Is it the way He meant to make things happen? But taken away just as fast because of fear and uncertainty. That's not God. God is not uncertain but we are blinded from His ways. How do we get passed that? How to we truely see His leadings? My heart was allowed to be sure for a moment. Love and life isn't a math problem. Oops ... That word...Used on the very day we celebrate it. The meaning of "Love is patient" i think can mean it waits....waits to grow. But sparks a desire in us that keeps us coming, keeps us moving, keeps us persuing, keeps on trying to make things simpler. Because we can't see the future we must take things with caution. Or should we. We have freedom in Christ don't we. Why can't we be free from uncertainty? Free to just be and not worry about futures, with out wondering if we are going to hurt.
Why don't we feel this when we think about walking away from God or actually walking away? We dont consider Him being hurt by our back and fourth affection patterns, from loving to dry love. Dry love being love with out much substance, effort or consistancy.
As I said I'm beat...physically now also.
Good night all
I'm beat.... emotionally....It's crazy how things can change so quickly. From normal, to great, down to um what was that before, normal? um not so normal any more. Is it crazy though? For something to change so soon to great. Is that natural? Is it God's will? Is it the way He meant to make things happen? But taken away just as fast because of fear and uncertainty. That's not God. God is not uncertain but we are blinded from His ways. How do we get passed that? How to we truely see His leadings? My heart was allowed to be sure for a moment. Love and life isn't a math problem. Oops ... That word...Used on the very day we celebrate it. The meaning of "Love is patient" i think can mean it waits....waits to grow. But sparks a desire in us that keeps us coming, keeps us moving, keeps us persuing, keeps on trying to make things simpler. Because we can't see the future we must take things with caution. Or should we. We have freedom in Christ don't we. Why can't we be free from uncertainty? Free to just be and not worry about futures, with out wondering if we are going to hurt.
Why don't we feel this when we think about walking away from God or actually walking away? We dont consider Him being hurt by our back and fourth affection patterns, from loving to dry love. Dry love being love with out much substance, effort or consistancy.
As I said I'm beat...physically now also.
Good night all