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For the past week my mind has been a constant miasma of conflicting emotions that have nothing to do with the external world. I'm so sick of it. Sudden stabs of depression, anxiety, rage, frustration. My moods switch on a dime and I feel no control. I've yet to make an ass of myself but keeping this in check is exhausting. I suppose some good has come of it. I've been exercising like crazy because its the only thing that seems to clear my head. But it comes back too quickly. I feel plagued. I need this to end soon. I'm losing my grip. Its easier to accept my problems and deal with them when they are external. I just think how artificial this must seem to a casual observer. Because it is all in my head. My objective feelings of the situation are all I have. I can't prove that I truly feel miserable, people just have to take me for my word.