i dont get it
i just don't get anything anymore. this month has just been way too much for me to handle. it's just everything from my grandpa's death to ending a 2 year relationship and trying to figure out where to go from there to constantly working and never really sitting down to have time to breathe to now my little cousin's death which is just such a mystery to us. i don't think i have ever been so mind boggled in my life. it just doesn't make any sense how it happened or why it happened. in your life, you're not supposed to watch your kids die, or even your grandkids. 5 years old. seriously, i don't get it anymore.