your hand in mine

[lilmissgarfield]

You rolled out of bed a little sooner than I. We had been wrapped around eachother without having thought of it, or anything at all for longer than i could remember. time stood still with us in it. In her womb, all snug like that, between the darkness of being held and the light in how it felt. How we were feeling,.. so well. The pockets of air between us extended until you were no longer in the room. I had to follow you. It didn't seem right our being apart for my soul, and when i came you smiled, slipping your hand into mine. Complicity was ours. I have never felt so grateful for someones hand. ever. nor shall i ever again. someone's kiss, or body, or soul, or time, or anything,...but their hand in mine? Not ever. People don't understand when i tell them. Just think in terms of words and their own experiences. I tried to explain. then let go. their worlds must be vast expanses of sameness not to have understood such depth. i wonder at them no more. Can it be that they simply dont let themselves go so deeply? Who knows. i wonder at them no more. content to enter into my own being more fully with each passing day. we are together yet not. noone has come as close as that. i look at your image and wonder if anyone ever will again. i suppose so. if i'm honest, others have in entirely different ways. if i'm honest. and if i'm absolutely raw and uncaring what people say, then yes, i have loved again, as deeply, and i will again, for i fall with an open heart into arms that greet me. but never, never shall anyones hand feel as yours did my love. : 0 ). The miracle of love, has taken away my pain, and my fear, and i am no longer proud, nor acheing and i no longer need. but here is enjoyment at last. with freedom of spirit that is not feeling guilt at being able to enjoy my life, and living. thankyou.
yours, jo xx

and the mirror image of our love
smashed apart, inside of my want
and your chasing needs
inside of our fears at the light
we shared. only us. only us.
we are waiting now,
us both. i for you, and you for me
i am ready. you are two.
its our time allright!