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you see through my eyes
what ive been meaning to see for years.
beauty is not defined by the ugliness around you,
its defined by the beauty you make it out to be.
thinking lately. people ask me why i dont just confront the problem, but im not going to be bothered by another persons words, thats always my problem. i get worked up because someone has to say something to make me look horrible, and themselves completely opposite. i respect that, a lot of us do it. im turning into that person that people who dont like me out to be. i dont want to be her, i have a hard enough time to just grin and bear it, it gets worse when you know its not remotely true. i asked for this though, i have you in my life, and you make me happy--i dont care if others want to hurt me anymore because if i let them, they will. hurting is for the weak, and i define myself as strong because i never turned my back on you, and loving you again was the hardest thing ive ever done.
i need to just "spread my wings and learn how to fly", and be my own person because im not going to please anyone this way. sometimes i wish i was more like my brother, someone who doesnt care what people do or say to him, because it wont matter in the end--karma, my friend. i always ran to him, he always tells me instantly who he doesnt like, and who will try and screw me over in the end. he always turns out to be right about a person.
i always try so hard to defend myself, so people dont just assume. but they will, they always will, and i just dont care anymore. im learning to let go, and finally grow up, and they can stand back and realize they lost everything because they werent able to grow up.
sorry boring rant. tired, and rushed. time to nap, read, or something before work.
what ive been meaning to see for years.
beauty is not defined by the ugliness around you,
its defined by the beauty you make it out to be.
thinking lately. people ask me why i dont just confront the problem, but im not going to be bothered by another persons words, thats always my problem. i get worked up because someone has to say something to make me look horrible, and themselves completely opposite. i respect that, a lot of us do it. im turning into that person that people who dont like me out to be. i dont want to be her, i have a hard enough time to just grin and bear it, it gets worse when you know its not remotely true. i asked for this though, i have you in my life, and you make me happy--i dont care if others want to hurt me anymore because if i let them, they will. hurting is for the weak, and i define myself as strong because i never turned my back on you, and loving you again was the hardest thing ive ever done.
i need to just "spread my wings and learn how to fly", and be my own person because im not going to please anyone this way. sometimes i wish i was more like my brother, someone who doesnt care what people do or say to him, because it wont matter in the end--karma, my friend. i always ran to him, he always tells me instantly who he doesnt like, and who will try and screw me over in the end. he always turns out to be right about a person.
i always try so hard to defend myself, so people dont just assume. but they will, they always will, and i just dont care anymore. im learning to let go, and finally grow up, and they can stand back and realize they lost everything because they werent able to grow up.
sorry boring rant. tired, and rushed. time to nap, read, or something before work.