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[lillah]

i'm alone
and will continue to be alone for the next three months
unless i do something about it
which i guess i'll have to
if i want to survive
and become a stronger person.
that's all life seems to be anymore, is a series of lessons through which you grow stronger and thicker-skinned and more cunning
but who the hell signed me up for that program?!

my supposed best friend who was supposed to be here in san diego with my by now . .. is not. and decided not to be last minute. cried a lot. thought a lot. cried some more. got pissed. got sad. got plenty of self-pity going on. realized it's better this way

so there