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So Im still here, and getting fatter by the second... I decided today that even though I am pregnant, there is no reason for me to get ridiculously fat... So I spent 2 hours exercising and doing my pilates for abs DVD... And then what did I do immediately afterwards?? Ate a pint of chocolate ice cream... Real smart, right? Anyway, I couldnt help myself. I was starving and it was practically the only food in the house.. Oh well. At least I tried.
Well, Im beginning to experience my insomnia again. For some reason I just cant sleep anymore. Every time I do manage to doze off for a few minutes, I just end up having yet another nightmare. I thought life would be getting easier by now. I thought id be able to function without breaking down and crying when I see or hear something that reminds me of him. But I should have known better. I loved him too deeply to forget so soon. I dont know if things will ever be better... I wish I could talk to his parents. There are so many things going on that they need to know about. I want them to be excited about their grandchild. But I understand why they arent. I just wish I had some kind of support, ya know? Someone who believes I can do this. cause right now, im not even sure i believe in myself.
Anyway, life is still crazy, but hopefully things will get better soon.
Well, Im beginning to experience my insomnia again. For some reason I just cant sleep anymore. Every time I do manage to doze off for a few minutes, I just end up having yet another nightmare. I thought life would be getting easier by now. I thought id be able to function without breaking down and crying when I see or hear something that reminds me of him. But I should have known better. I loved him too deeply to forget so soon. I dont know if things will ever be better... I wish I could talk to his parents. There are so many things going on that they need to know about. I want them to be excited about their grandchild. But I understand why they arent. I just wish I had some kind of support, ya know? Someone who believes I can do this. cause right now, im not even sure i believe in myself.
Anyway, life is still crazy, but hopefully things will get better soon.