(no subject)
Wow, its been a while since Ive updated... Things are going OK I suppose. I had my first prenatal appointment on June 6th, and I found out I was only 9 weeks, so that was kind of disappointing. But I still got an ultrasound, which was awesome... I could see the little heartbeat and everything. Brooks went with me, and I was so thankful. I would have hated to be there alone, especially for my first appointment. So he got to see the first ultrasound, and Dr Obryan gave me 2 pictures, so I let Brooks keep one.
Anyway, my birthday was this week, Tuesday in fact. So Im officially not a teenager anymore. I had a pretty low key bday. Went to my parents house and had dinner. Then last night, Mike took me to dinner which was nice.
I babysat tonight for the Nickels, and stayed and talked to Kim for a long time after she got home. We talked alot about Robert and my pregnancy, etc... I still miss him so much. I am trying to move on and look forward, but its like I cant do anything without thinking of him. I wish he could be here to celebrate this pregnancy with me, like I know he would. But when I am all alone, its hard to celebrate because I am so scared. I am beginning to feel more and more like I will not be able to provide for the baby. It makes me feel guilt that you cant even imagine... Im so confused.
Ugh, I gotta go to bed. I think I have a kidney infection and I cant take the pain anymore. Goodnight, and ill update soon.
Anyway, my birthday was this week, Tuesday in fact. So Im officially not a teenager anymore. I had a pretty low key bday. Went to my parents house and had dinner. Then last night, Mike took me to dinner which was nice.
I babysat tonight for the Nickels, and stayed and talked to Kim for a long time after she got home. We talked alot about Robert and my pregnancy, etc... I still miss him so much. I am trying to move on and look forward, but its like I cant do anything without thinking of him. I wish he could be here to celebrate this pregnancy with me, like I know he would. But when I am all alone, its hard to celebrate because I am so scared. I am beginning to feel more and more like I will not be able to provide for the baby. It makes me feel guilt that you cant even imagine... Im so confused.
Ugh, I gotta go to bed. I think I have a kidney infection and I cant take the pain anymore. Goodnight, and ill update soon.