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sometimes i hate the distance more than anything ive ever hated in my entire life. i hate the feeling of my stomach eating my stomach- the nervous feeling that creeps up through my body and cramps my insides.
i have been at this relationship for three semesters and only three more to go, however, no matter how long we have been at this, i can never seem to get the hang of letting go. i am in a state of withdrawl right now. for some reason it is so bad right now. i dont know who to talk to about it and how to express it and so for the first time in months i have turned to writing. it has been so long since i have felt the need to actually write about anything.
i feel bad as i know i am one of those people who only write when something is bothering me, but i guess it is because when life is good id rather be living it than writing about it.
it hasnt even been a week yet. in fact i had trouble leaving the airport. i tried so hard not to cry when i left. im not quite sure why it is that i am so depressed about being here this time...
i feel like no one here would understand that though and i dont want to offend anyone by talking about my unhappiness right now being here.
whatever... itll blow off by the end of the month...
i have been at this relationship for three semesters and only three more to go, however, no matter how long we have been at this, i can never seem to get the hang of letting go. i am in a state of withdrawl right now. for some reason it is so bad right now. i dont know who to talk to about it and how to express it and so for the first time in months i have turned to writing. it has been so long since i have felt the need to actually write about anything.
i feel bad as i know i am one of those people who only write when something is bothering me, but i guess it is because when life is good id rather be living it than writing about it.
it hasnt even been a week yet. in fact i had trouble leaving the airport. i tried so hard not to cry when i left. im not quite sure why it is that i am so depressed about being here this time...
i feel like no one here would understand that though and i dont want to offend anyone by talking about my unhappiness right now being here.
whatever... itll blow off by the end of the month...