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I am going to have a melt-down soon.
There is no reason why I should even be attempting this god damn AP music theory test. For the 1st fucking time in my life today, I did the harmonic dictation. And I SUCK at melodic dictation, so you can just imagine how hard harmonic is for me. I can't do it, and I nearly broke down right then & there because I'm supposed to be able to do this with no problem next week. The sight singing, I guess, it could be worse, but I'll find some way to mess it up. I just don't feel like I know enough to be able to sit down & do somewhat well on this test because of the fact that our test is a week from yesterday & we're still learning new concepts. I don't know. I'm freaking out. Plain & simply just freaking out, I'm so bad with this stuff, and I don't really know how to study for it. Granted, I could still get my $70 back if I really wanted to, but I kNoW I would never hear the end of it. I'm regretting this so so so so much. There's no way I'm doing well on this damn test. So, in turn, it'll end up being a waste of $70.
Way to go.
There is no reason why I should even be attempting this god damn AP music theory test. For the 1st fucking time in my life today, I did the harmonic dictation. And I SUCK at melodic dictation, so you can just imagine how hard harmonic is for me. I can't do it, and I nearly broke down right then & there because I'm supposed to be able to do this with no problem next week. The sight singing, I guess, it could be worse, but I'll find some way to mess it up. I just don't feel like I know enough to be able to sit down & do somewhat well on this test because of the fact that our test is a week from yesterday & we're still learning new concepts. I don't know. I'm freaking out. Plain & simply just freaking out, I'm so bad with this stuff, and I don't really know how to study for it. Granted, I could still get my $70 back if I really wanted to, but I kNoW I would never hear the end of it. I'm regretting this so so so so much. There's no way I'm doing well on this damn test. So, in turn, it'll end up being a waste of $70.
Way to go.