Waaaay to go..
Yeah, waaaay to go Tara for not having any confidence and making it completely & totally obvious to the point where her flute teacher can notice it. Why is this such a damn problem for me?
This week has royally kicked my ass & won, easily. I feel like I'm getting a cold, now, and my ear really hurts. Likewise, my throat is killing me. Can I go like... a week, perferably hell week & the weekend of shows without being sick? And perferably, the 10th, too.. because it's imperative that I compete that day dammnit. And my back really hurts. And everytime I eat, my stomach gets all grumbly & upset.
And way to go, once again, for forgetting about the first Sat. rehearsal being this Saturday. I could have sworn it was the one after, but that's the 10th & that's the one I'm not going to. AHHHHHHHHHHH
It's the first week back to school & with the way I'm stressed you'd think it'd be at least two weeks. Why do I kill myself to do all this work I kNoW I'm not going to finish. I'm convinced I'm failing every theory test from here on out, including the AP, because I just don't understand a lot. And candences, forget it. It's easy when you have the sheet of paper in front of you, but forget it, without the notes, I'm done for. Voice leading, too. I can't remember all these damn rules, esp. when it's everything all put together and there's no little section wher eyou do this & one where you do that and stuff like that. I'm probably making not one bit of sense right now because I am just babbling & rambling on because I'm stressed & this is my journal so I don't care. And the worse part is, it's being perceived as if I can do this & that I am doing well. When in all reality, I'm going to get the test & probably choke... What else is new? Whyyy am I such a horribly test taker....
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I know, I complain a lot. But I'm really stressed & just feel really lonely & whatnot. Bear with me.................................
This week has royally kicked my ass & won, easily. I feel like I'm getting a cold, now, and my ear really hurts. Likewise, my throat is killing me. Can I go like... a week, perferably hell week & the weekend of shows without being sick? And perferably, the 10th, too.. because it's imperative that I compete that day dammnit. And my back really hurts. And everytime I eat, my stomach gets all grumbly & upset.
And way to go, once again, for forgetting about the first Sat. rehearsal being this Saturday. I could have sworn it was the one after, but that's the 10th & that's the one I'm not going to. AHHHHHHHHHHH
It's the first week back to school & with the way I'm stressed you'd think it'd be at least two weeks. Why do I kill myself to do all this work I kNoW I'm not going to finish. I'm convinced I'm failing every theory test from here on out, including the AP, because I just don't understand a lot. And candences, forget it. It's easy when you have the sheet of paper in front of you, but forget it, without the notes, I'm done for. Voice leading, too. I can't remember all these damn rules, esp. when it's everything all put together and there's no little section wher eyou do this & one where you do that and stuff like that. I'm probably making not one bit of sense right now because I am just babbling & rambling on because I'm stressed & this is my journal so I don't care. And the worse part is, it's being perceived as if I can do this & that I am doing well. When in all reality, I'm going to get the test & probably choke... What else is new? Whyyy am I such a horribly test taker....
)*!%@#$!%^&*(_
I know, I complain a lot. But I'm really stressed & just feel really lonely & whatnot. Bear with me.................................