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Yesterday I made arrangements with Demi for her to take Andrew to Inagural. Demi was fine with it, Andrew was fine with it, I was fine with it.
My mother is not. She feels I am breaking school rules and might threaten induction into NHS. She made me change all of my plans. Which involved some very uncomfortable phone calling. I feel awful. I feel awful for caring about this because I heard so many other stories of people facing truly difficult problems. Yet I also feel awful because I feel this whole situation just stretched my relationships with everyone.
I don't want to go Friday, yet I know I will have to go. I also know I can't even tell my mother that I don't want to go.
Part of me wishes I could just talk to my Mom normally. Yet she constantly seems disappointed or annoyed at me. I just don't know what to do, because I don't think I can be happy by making her happy, but I know I won't be happy if she isn't. That problem made no sense, but it did to me.
My mother is not. She feels I am breaking school rules and might threaten induction into NHS. She made me change all of my plans. Which involved some very uncomfortable phone calling. I feel awful. I feel awful for caring about this because I heard so many other stories of people facing truly difficult problems. Yet I also feel awful because I feel this whole situation just stretched my relationships with everyone.
I don't want to go Friday, yet I know I will have to go. I also know I can't even tell my mother that I don't want to go.
Part of me wishes I could just talk to my Mom normally. Yet she constantly seems disappointed or annoyed at me. I just don't know what to do, because I don't think I can be happy by making her happy, but I know I won't be happy if she isn't. That problem made no sense, but it did to me.