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So I should be asleep, but I can't sleep. All I want to do is pick up the phone and call. Just hear that voice say hello on the other end of the phone. Then I'd be able to sleep. I mean seriously why do I keep doing this to myself? This has to be the most torture I've ever put myslef through. Wanting something I know Damn well I can't have. I'm such and idiot. I've never let anything or anybody get to me like this in a very long time. Now I don't know how to stop it. Its like nothing seems to work, no matter how hard I try my mind still wanders back. Why did I even allow myself to open up? I mean I never do so why this time? Ok thats my rambling for tonight. I'm going to try and sleep now.