who says you cant go home?
so um my cousins having her baby tonight! im excited for her, yet upset because i most likely wont be able to go up to the hospital to see her, unless he/she (which i think itll be a he) is born early enough before my parents get to bed.. my cousins gf said shed take me tomorrow at 4 o clock when she got done work, but prom duties call.. i kinda dont wanna go down the shore anymore just for the fact that the babys being born, and that my uncle bobs comin home from the hospital tomorrow.. im worried about it all actually.. i dont know whats gonna go on tomorrow with the prom and all though because my aunts supposed to do my hair.. i just hope this all works out and that the baby is born soon enough so i can go see it.. theyre waiting for pete to get done work so he can deliver it which means they probably wont even start until 6-6:30.. i dont know how long c-sections take though.. if i dont go tonight i wont be able to see her or the baby until wednesday, which i dont want to happen.. my parents are being assholes about the whole thing and wont let me up there unless we go as a family..
anyway, i got my cap and gown today because i have to wear it monday to the archdiocesan honors convocation - SUCKS REAL BAD.. i dont want to go at all, nor do i want to go to prom.. its sad.. and the cap and gown looks horrendus on me, i feel like a gospel singing woman.. i still have to attempt to write my speech, and make favors for my party, ill do that next weekend i guess.. the whole graduation thing is sinking in deeper and i dont want to leave the school and certain people in my past.. which leads me to the boy i like, which also kinda sucks, because he has no idea, and im afraid if i tell him ill scare him off.. i hate life sometimes..
anyway, i got my cap and gown today because i have to wear it monday to the archdiocesan honors convocation - SUCKS REAL BAD.. i dont want to go at all, nor do i want to go to prom.. its sad.. and the cap and gown looks horrendus on me, i feel like a gospel singing woman.. i still have to attempt to write my speech, and make favors for my party, ill do that next weekend i guess.. the whole graduation thing is sinking in deeper and i dont want to leave the school and certain people in my past.. which leads me to the boy i like, which also kinda sucks, because he has no idea, and im afraid if i tell him ill scare him off.. i hate life sometimes..