September draws near...
So...this summer has seriously gone by so fast. Too fast. I'd give anything for it to not end. Not that I don't like the fall season, don't get me wrong cause it's one of my favorites. But it's what happens when September comes. Most of you don't read this, but there are some that do, and if you have read my last post then you have an idea. That girl I spoke of in the last entry, Bekah, is now my girlfriend and has been for over a month now. I am completely happy with this girl. And come September 6th she'll be getting on a plane and moving to Seattle. While I am excited for her and so so so proud of her, I still am not prepared for what it will be like without her. We spend so much time together, almost all the time we have. And rightfully so, you see her and I hung out so much before our first kiss and the whole time neither one of us knew how the other felt. We had so many moments where the kiss should have happened and it didn't. But we couldn't fight it anymore apparently cause it happened and now here we are. And I have never been so happy. Seriously.
Most people I talk to are just like, "Whatever, just go to Seattle with her." Little do they know...I have seriously considered it, and still am. I know I can't right now, it's impossible right now. But at some point...I will follow that girl. Crazy, right? Wrong. Because that's what we both want. To be together. Whether it's here or there or some where in between. We know. But I know I can't now because I have things here that I am involved in, and people that I just can't leave yet. But at some point....I'm out of here and we'll do as we have already begun to plan. Again, sounds crazy, right? Again, wrong.
On the bright side of her not being here, at least I'll have a chance to save as much money as I can, and to do things for me. I plan to work just as much as I do now, and not spend money on things that I don't need. But don't get me wrong...I'll do some things for Bryce. I have to. I've started to save for tattoos. Yes that was plural. But probably the best part of it all is that I'll get time with my best friends. I feel sort of bad for not being around so much these past couple of months. But I think they understand...
Jon and Julie have seriously been so great through the past few months with the whole Bekah situation. I don't think I've ever had friends that I could talk to like I do them, and they understand and they're happy that I found some one like her. I mean I'm sure but my friends are happy, but the two of them have been so great. It's just nice to have some one to talk to, vent to, and that's why they are my best friends. Ever.
I know that most things will stay the same through out this whole experience, I mean yeah my girlfriend is moving across the country but she is STILL my girlfriend, and we know what will happen in the end. And I'll still have all the great friends I've met in Young Faith, and I'll still have Jon and Julie and every one. And that is what keeps me from freaking out I think. This post probably didn't make much sense, but I guess in the end it was just to say that I have the best friends any one could ask for, the love of the greatest girl ever and I love her, and that I am happier than I thought I could ever be. I know change is scary to some...but I'm willing to go through it and I'll wait for the smoke to clear because in the end.......it's all worth it, and she is worth it.
Most people I talk to are just like, "Whatever, just go to Seattle with her." Little do they know...I have seriously considered it, and still am. I know I can't right now, it's impossible right now. But at some point...I will follow that girl. Crazy, right? Wrong. Because that's what we both want. To be together. Whether it's here or there or some where in between. We know. But I know I can't now because I have things here that I am involved in, and people that I just can't leave yet. But at some point....I'm out of here and we'll do as we have already begun to plan. Again, sounds crazy, right? Again, wrong.
On the bright side of her not being here, at least I'll have a chance to save as much money as I can, and to do things for me. I plan to work just as much as I do now, and not spend money on things that I don't need. But don't get me wrong...I'll do some things for Bryce. I have to. I've started to save for tattoos. Yes that was plural. But probably the best part of it all is that I'll get time with my best friends. I feel sort of bad for not being around so much these past couple of months. But I think they understand...
Jon and Julie have seriously been so great through the past few months with the whole Bekah situation. I don't think I've ever had friends that I could talk to like I do them, and they understand and they're happy that I found some one like her. I mean I'm sure but my friends are happy, but the two of them have been so great. It's just nice to have some one to talk to, vent to, and that's why they are my best friends. Ever.
I know that most things will stay the same through out this whole experience, I mean yeah my girlfriend is moving across the country but she is STILL my girlfriend, and we know what will happen in the end. And I'll still have all the great friends I've met in Young Faith, and I'll still have Jon and Julie and every one. And that is what keeps me from freaking out I think. This post probably didn't make much sense, but I guess in the end it was just to say that I have the best friends any one could ask for, the love of the greatest girl ever and I love her, and that I am happier than I thought I could ever be. I know change is scary to some...but I'm willing to go through it and I'll wait for the smoke to clear because in the end.......it's all worth it, and she is worth it.