i need to do this.
there are alot of things i need to do very soon. most i cant do much about right now. i have to wait to try and see if i can still have this job. untill i get that job i dont have any money. so pretty much the only thing i can do this moment is restart project girl...wtf is that?
just me trying to be girly. i dont have any money to get girl clothing just yet but i can do small things. try and wear the few girl tops i have, keep my nails nice, painted.
first step is finally picking my new hair. i'm really really thinking of dyeing my hair a lighter color again. after that i need to start getting my eye brows done again. problem is no of this can happen till i have a job. it's really anoying. i mean i cooooould ask patrick for the hair cut since he already agreed to that forever ago.
after that is getting some really cute clothing. i'm just scared by the time i can afford to wear cute things it wont matter cause i'll be old and ugly. yeah i can be that shallow.
the one thing i can do is really try to lose weight. i say it all the time but i never do it and now there is a really good chance it's too late. i mean yeah i can still lose but the day has past where my body will look..normal. i'm really scared about that. but for real this time. i'm going try and bring back loseinlildemisa lol. cause if it's not online it isnt happening. really it was sorta helping me. i have to force myself to do things.
i have to do this. I WILLLLLL do this.
just me trying to be girly. i dont have any money to get girl clothing just yet but i can do small things. try and wear the few girl tops i have, keep my nails nice, painted.
first step is finally picking my new hair. i'm really really thinking of dyeing my hair a lighter color again. after that i need to start getting my eye brows done again. problem is no of this can happen till i have a job. it's really anoying. i mean i cooooould ask patrick for the hair cut since he already agreed to that forever ago.
after that is getting some really cute clothing. i'm just scared by the time i can afford to wear cute things it wont matter cause i'll be old and ugly. yeah i can be that shallow.
the one thing i can do is really try to lose weight. i say it all the time but i never do it and now there is a really good chance it's too late. i mean yeah i can still lose but the day has past where my body will look..normal. i'm really scared about that. but for real this time. i'm going try and bring back loseinlildemisa lol. cause if it's not online it isnt happening. really it was sorta helping me. i have to force myself to do things.
i have to do this. I WILLLLLL do this.