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[lilcubanqt]

hey all....
whats going on? Not much here.
Just chillin and totally not studying for the exams i will be failing a week from today.
you know, today, i was looking through my myspace at my friends. I dont

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[leo_bialystock]

ok. maybe you dont want me to reead this, but i'm still concerned. first, what did you do in October that was so horrible? if you dont want to tell me that's fine. just don't get down on yourself. i get jealous of people everyday who live in new york. i see them on facebook and i don't even know them but i'm tempted to send them an email. my dad and his family are from long island. my dad barely knows his cousin who lives in queens. i always get angry at him for moving to florida and not staying in contact with ANYBODY from new york. And I hope I'm in this exclusive club Dan has created, because lord knows I'm screwed. I mean I'm already screwed. it's not something i have to worry about in the future. it's happening in my life right now. i didn't get into FSU's program again. blew it in the callback. they WANTED to let me in. but i couldn't follow this guy's instructions cause I was too nervous and i'm a spazz with a fear of success. i must have had like 4 opportunities to do the same monologue and i still couldn't give them what they wanted. man fuck real life. oh and by the way, if you're serious about being in their musical theatre program, brush up on your dancing skills now and you'll be golden...so anyway here are my options. I can audition for UF possibly get into their program and then get rejected from the actual university for my far less than competitive grades. I can audition for UCF, get in to a school with a theatre department that is basically a joke and start a "legacy" according to Dan. so sometimes I think, forget about all this college shit, just go audition for RENT or SNL or whatever. i mean for a school that demands such perfectly polished actors what do they have left to teach me. and really what difference does it make if i have a BFA or a degree at all unless i'm going to be a drama teacher. so yea i'm screwed. and we all feel the same way about the holidays, i'm sure Dan has already explained this to you, but what I want to know is why does everyone always come to Dan for advice? how come everybody only wants help from Dan or want to talk to Dan. i mean i know he's in fort lauderdale right now, but even when he's in orlando he's getting calls. i mean i'm not looking for a pity party but why is it people cant talk to me. dan could easily talk to every drama person ever and if i talk to someone people find it painful. honestly, i want to know. i mean what the hell does he keep on saying that constantly upsets you. ah forget it, your not the only one. nobody writes in my lj or calls me. Dan gives one of his many rants for what seems like every week and the responses and calls just keep pouring in. i guess its just really depressing when you realize that you have all of these "friends" but like 2 close friends. and even if dan has only 20 fake "friends" they are all willing to listen and console. i mean i feel like between me and him, i'm the one that is most likely to jump out of building. whatever that statement was a little much. just forget it. i think i get why nobody calls me now. anyway...merry christmas or feliz navidad..whatever you non-jewish cubans celebrate.