Second-Hand Mädchen
Well, I meant to write sooner but it didn’t happen. I had grand plans for this journal from every day since New Year’s up until this point. But, that didn’t work out and it’s been awhile. Ya know, I’ve always tended to be light on semi-publically documenting things that don’t exist solely in my imagination. So, really, when you think about it, it’s
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I feel like this is a time for giving birth to grand narratives. I had a couple more extended essays to do. But, I was going over some of my old stuff and it is like "yesh". How did you ever put up with that? Why was anyone reading it? What is wrong with you people?
I'm quite sure this new one is nearly as dreadful as most of the others. Mostly this stuff is dense in the most uninviting of ways. It is everything I have ever complained about other mystics doing. I wasn't even trying to be an asshole. While I do know what I was thinking, exactly, when I was doing it, I am unsure as to why I thought any of this was a good idea. Well, I was compelled. This one, in my mind, is fine - of course. But, I only think that because I'm still high from the vapors. In reality, it is not fine. It is Le Poo Poos.
Some of what's been written is truly brilliant. But, for the most part, it all goes on too long and constantly references a crapulous twee inner dialog that renders the vast majority of everything I've done (LJ wise) over the last couple of years mostly unenjoyable and generally unreadable.
My apology.
I can actually demonstrate all of this:
A) there is a 3/4-d code in all written words that renders everyone's notion of geometra "cute". And, it provides a unifying theory of mathematics and number.
B) All of this world's practical math and most technology (save the last 120 years) is a reinvention or rediscovery of math and technology from 3000+ years ago.
C) Everything that we are, as Americans (with masonic pretensions), comes from a Phoenician/Cretan/Aramaic/Sabean alliance that was mainly run and invented by women. And, where not run by women, it was certainly run by a culture with more advanced notions of gender equality than most of this world currently possess.
D) Roman/American/Masonic/Thelemic symbolism is actually worship/symbolismE of Hittite/Aramaic myths of local heros and solar goddess cults. That "solar phallicism" is, at base, gynocratic and made of women. Google "Arinna" and Sargon's (adoptive) grandmother "Kubaba"
E) A Christian narrative that says "All good things come from the suppression/restraint of Male "Chthonic" power. That the great key to a stable urban society is about redirecting and suppressing the nature of The MEN. <- this was mostly for fun. But, it's not actually wrong.
F) A totalizing meta-narrative that kills everyone's darlings and explicates the intractable nature of Science & Religion. But, done in a way that lets the whole world be as it currently is.
G) How our physiology dictates most of this. And, how to control the nervous system and hallucinate in a really useful way. <- We've shown part of that already.
It's too much. Clearly, I was delusional. I have to throw this all away, start again, or move on and do something else altogether. Whatever comes next this much is clear: I need to learn how to better tell a fucking story. Geez Louise. But, I have to say, I really did build a wonderful world there. It's unfortunate that I don't know how to tell people about it in a sensible and compelling way.
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Yes. The address is fine. I have been getting your stuffs. Thank you!
TEEN is excellent. I enjoy them too. :) Did you all ever get into Janelle Monae? Her new meta piece is pretty good. It's not great. But, I like it enough to point it out to you.
I had been holding off responding or doing much of anything else, due to the constipation with the above grand narrative. And, also, I was sorting out this new era of my life. It has become evident that I'm never going to sort out anything to my complete and total personal satisfaction. And, it has led me to being a bad friend.
Again, my apology.
So fuck it. I'm going to take my own life advice and approach from a different angle. This weekend: I'm reading that book, having the Conan framed, and would like to know the addy of the currently most relevant Study group.
Assuming the way is still open, I'm ready to start.
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Dangling an 'prentice in front of us to help get things moving on the grand narratives. Games to build and new scouting systems to concoct. It will be good times, big money and a shitload of work.
Welcome to the Tony Curtis Hieroglyphic Society! That one was a coin toss, probably doesn't need framed but it will go with a rarer thing that I've been making sure will actually get to the right place because it is my only copy. Then there's the book, which may suck but Edith deserves to be remembered and revived. If you dig it there's something more precious in that vein too.
As for the cubes, I wonder if everyone having to build their own is part of the secret. The Russell one I love because the canonical axes are I/Thou, +/- and mind/matter, more or less. In the middle is gold. But now it strikes me that this might become a thing in one of the grand narratives:
I want to bootleg the Legion of Super Heroes in all its weird Eisenhower-to-now hope and complexity. For our time with all that entails. A rescue mission of sorts, which also reminds me of why I love a lot of your stuff even when it's running on fumes and momentum . . . it's "suggesting wisdom to the wise," like my favorite one-page CFR liber where he's just doing a one-line mnemonic for each of the trumps, an audition piece to whoever hears. Not that you do that but it's all I do lately, sending messages to someone in a bottle. So the Legion has a kind of time travel device, a cube of space, etc.
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>The Tony Curtis Hieroglyphic Society!
There are worse titles. We're called The Tony Curtis Hieroglyphic Society! and mot The Tony Curtis Hieroglyphic Society. The exclamation point, it stays, right? Myself, I'm a big fan of the interrobang. Because how could you not be? But, the interrobang is a pain in the ass to regularly pull off.
The Tony Curtis Hieroglyphic Society‽
I have high hopes we can learn how to do what is needed.
Anyway, as for the cubes,: Hell's yes I loved that Russell renamed x,y,z as salt, sulfur, and quicksilver. I totally stole that. It's innovative and adorable. It's been awhile and I still never went further than his basic introductions. So, if I get him wrong, it's because I haven't bothered to work on Copper Kettle. ( And, I probably never will. He's got too much extra. He has too many rules. His thing is still way too rococo for my personal taste.)
Mines is more simple. You just use the Earlier Heaven matchy matchy and the Lo Shu Square. Then it's just a 23skidoo for the entire 64 to fall into place. It's also easier to keep in your head. In my world, as long as the orientations remain proper, you're good. None the less, we appear to have reached substantial agreement. We're both using the Primitive Triple. That's the foundation for everyone's everything. You can hardly call yourself civilized if you don't have that. It's the basic building block.
Doing it my way, you're in simple agreement with every urban culture past and present. I don't think that was part of Cecil's goal though. None of that matters though. I can go into his world and anyone who has done the work to be familiar with his world can super easily go into mine. With mine, you just pull together the 32 pairs and you're done. It's remedial by comparison. Mine is literally middle school math while he developed his own calculus. You really have to do a lot more work to get into him than you do mine.
You can put a wrapper on it (convex/concave) but you don't need to do that. The pairs are already there. And, the alchemical elements are already labeled via the lines of the bagua. (1y,2x,3z)
Then, I learned you don't have to make a cube. You can think of it as something that's always surrounding you in your environment.
I don't think you have to build your own. I think it would be great if we just taught people that they can be built and gave them a useful generic model. I think you do have to learn how to make stuff. It's not alchemy if you're not making stuff. To that end, a lot of this crap is a waste of time. If I had had this, as completely as I do now, as a teenager, the entire course of my life would have been different, more fulfilling, and far more productive. If similar system had been accessible, there'd have been no need to build my own.
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Couple side threads that need tied back in, we are loving Janelle but missed the Grimes collab so I need to wake Ridgely up stat. Study Group Space is wide open . . . I am always at the office so all I have is the G+ and its hooker food portions.
Needing to ramp something up now with one of the Ghostley's friends, Young Master Russell, so the time for grand narrative building is apparently now. Of course I want the ventures to be self-sustaining after a tiny push and at this point you know that probably means "able to generate vast quantities of cash" so you need to be central in the planning.
Biggest dad joke on my screen right now is that a listing for The Seven Degrees of the Kibbo Kift came up and my immediate thought was lost Wu Tang album that needs to happen. I was unaware that when the KLF burned their money one of the places they sent the VHS screener was Alan Moore's living room. An outdated Iain Sinclair catalog tells me this.
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If I get time this week, I'll work something up. It might be easier to go through Russell. My goal was to show the Primordial Tradition. I have pretty well done that. My system jumps all the gaps. From my perspective, I don't feel like I've invented as much as uncovered.
As ever, I'm kinda stuck with Russell wondering "What for?". I would reduce it to a matter of labeling - Cecil makes too much work out of labels and over complicating concepts. ie Crystal vs edge or lattice etc. But, despite how wonderful Bertoux and the Charozon systems are, it is wholly evident from the output of the practitioners that they don't jump the gap. And, we are here to jump the gap.
So, that's my major pickle with Cecil. It's the same pickle, as always, but different. As far as I can tell, the three of us are using the same mediums and pimping similar messages. Very similar. We are brothers and sisters. And, it blows me away that nobody else in kookville has done the same work. It's like they used the logic matrix of neoplatonic classicism and just dumped the kook shit into it. And, subsequently never bothered to connect it to everyone else.
That's a perfectly cherry move and all. BUT this seems to have been done in such a way that reduces real world solutions into a trickle. My system is predicated on the idea that we are all always connected. Otherwise, it is very much the same. I think Michael's system has some seriously superior elements. And, I plan on working through it over the rest of the year. I'm expecting some impressive results.
As far as the OTO is concerned, Laban is the only one who I feel really got it. But, he grew up with the type of classical education you get when you're an aristocrat. This is why I like Prince Charles a great deal. He gets it. And, also, his house Windsor goes back to Mohammed. (for your "aliens in house of spy" story, House Windsor can technically claim head of the caliphate.) I find the whole thing with the Royals hilarious. It fits so neatly into my "inbred retarding" UR cosmology.
> missed the Grimes collab
Girl. I gave that to you months ago.
>Young Master Russell,
How is Seth? I noticed a lot of the old gang has moved to twitter. But, I didn't see him. I'm thinking of posting little baubles there. I feel like Brian Eno and me need to be in a dialog.
> Study Group Space.
Well, okay. I like that better than Tony Curtis's Fight Club. But, I still like Tony Curtis.
> I am always at the office
Is 25% of the office still located located in your boudoir? I hope no one is forcing you to regularly wear pants. I have a garage and a spare room. (Also, I know where to get cheap industrial/office space.) if it comes to that, material operations can be easily moved to Texas. <- it should never come to this. But, if it did, space is available.
More on the other threads.
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As for the Grimes, I know. I got into it when you said but now Ridgely is SUPER INTO IT.
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I feel like this is a time for giving birth to grand narratives.
I'm in this mode right now, too! I had a run with Oxycodone (Percocet) (In case you haven't been reading this.) (available OTC in Guatemala), and that really helped. I've been off for a month or so now. The changes have been great!
Your writing can be a bit much sometimes for the uninitiated, I agree. But you do fine and I read you. :)
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