Family?
So I'm back from my home state, California. It hit me on my way back from the airport today that the reason I was so excited to go out there in the first place was to see my family, the cool side of my family. And then I found out that they all changed, I dont feel like I belong there in the family. Everyone has the feeling at least once in their life where it seems like they dont belong. But what about in your own family? All of my cousins are guys that's part of the reason, since when I was little I was treated like a boy. Now that I'm older they dont really wanna hang out because they've realized that I'm a girl. My mom's side of the family dont like me and my brother because we live in a nice house, and they're jealous. It's so stupid they never really accepted us when we moved back here to Michigan. Now that I go back to California and see the other side I dont belong.
Then I went up North to see my dad and his other family. My half brothers, step sister and step mother. Well my step sister is the exact opposite of me; she like make-up, she high maintence she'll shop at hollister, A&F and nothing less b/c it's not good enough for her, she'll spend her dads money and my dad's money as soon as she gets it, she like rap and country, she's obesessed with guys, likes horror movies and chick flicks and she dresses totally diff. Nothing in common. My half brothers are brats. My bird brain stepmother is well......... dumb.
I probably wont go back to California and see my family until I'm finished with ROTC. Becuase then they'll see me as an adult not just a little kid who never grew up or matured. Because I've always looked immature. I was told I looked like I was 12 and 14 this past week and that pisses me off. The only family I consider anymore is my mom and my brother, that's all the family I got...and that's all I need....
Then I went up North to see my dad and his other family. My half brothers, step sister and step mother. Well my step sister is the exact opposite of me; she like make-up, she high maintence she'll shop at hollister, A&F and nothing less b/c it's not good enough for her, she'll spend her dads money and my dad's money as soon as she gets it, she like rap and country, she's obesessed with guys, likes horror movies and chick flicks and she dresses totally diff. Nothing in common. My half brothers are brats. My bird brain stepmother is well......... dumb.
I probably wont go back to California and see my family until I'm finished with ROTC. Becuase then they'll see me as an adult not just a little kid who never grew up or matured. Because I've always looked immature. I was told I looked like I was 12 and 14 this past week and that pisses me off. The only family I consider anymore is my mom and my brother, that's all the family I got...and that's all I need....