Night Before
The panel is tomorrow and I am stressed but not as stressed as I was. There are as always some last minute shit. I am concerned that one of my co-panelist is not stressed. When I questioned she explained to me how nothing bad could happen, then at the ended expressed that she would knock out someone's tooth if they were obnoxious enough to say... and then she quoted what over a dozen people have said to me since my first panel. I hope reality greets her peacefully, for I think I have said all that I can already.
Professor Hill will be attending the panel. She is so weird. Is she trying to apologize to me for being an ass without admitting it? Or is this yet another example of her interpersonal inconsistency? When I spoke with her I got the impression she had been waiting, almost hoping for me to say something. It is difficult to start a conversation with a professor when you are not aloud to email them or stop by her office. I don't know exactly how I feel about her attending the panel but thank god I am not her TA anymore. I am not sure what outside the realm of "my crap" she expects to hear at the panel. Then again I never really knew what she was referring to.
Professor Hill will be attending the panel. She is so weird. Is she trying to apologize to me for being an ass without admitting it? Or is this yet another example of her interpersonal inconsistency? When I spoke with her I got the impression she had been waiting, almost hoping for me to say something. It is difficult to start a conversation with a professor when you are not aloud to email them or stop by her office. I don't know exactly how I feel about her attending the panel but thank god I am not her TA anymore. I am not sure what outside the realm of "my crap" she expects to hear at the panel. Then again I never really knew what she was referring to.