ladida
i love relaxing. woke up (relatively) early today. 10 oclock. sleeping late is love. went out to breakfost con mi madre (gail's on the common) wouldn't recomend it. went to the mall, and i got a new coat! i love it! its (kind of?) a pea coat, black and white thread to make grey. double breasted. ive always wanted a coat like this, but they've always been too long on me, which makes them look are strange and lumpy. yay coats! went to the bookstore, got frivolous books. went to bagelman and got (duh) bagels. then home.
theres really no reason for me to be posting, but im in a good mood--albeit bored.
been nervous about college lately. about only getting into my one safety school, and if that does happen, being happy there. and not being embarrassed to wear the sweatshirt, etc etc. nervous about being on my own, making friends, having no support system. worried about being homesick.
its strange, but i really like living here. its, yes, waspy and small and i often can not stand the residnet's mentalities and.. well.. .you know. but its such a lovely place, so comfortable. it really annoys me when ppl talk about how badly they want to leave here, as if this is an awful place to grow up. i feel extremely lucky to have been able to live here for so long. and ill miss it :( and my house, and mi madre y padre.... y even mi hermano o.O
i feel like ive been looking forward to college for so long, and i know that it cant live up to all that ive been imagining it to be. oy. hard to describe. and gahh! i really cant wait until march to hear from the rest of my schools. and ive been thinking about all of the schools ive applied to (so far 10, i have just one more app left!) and i really dont know what my top choice is after the three schools which i have very little chance getting into. no idea. ahh. dont know how ill decide. sorry for this... big jumble of not making sense. :)
anyway, happy holidays everyone!
theres really no reason for me to be posting, but im in a good mood--albeit bored.
been nervous about college lately. about only getting into my one safety school, and if that does happen, being happy there. and not being embarrassed to wear the sweatshirt, etc etc. nervous about being on my own, making friends, having no support system. worried about being homesick.
its strange, but i really like living here. its, yes, waspy and small and i often can not stand the residnet's mentalities and.. well.. .you know. but its such a lovely place, so comfortable. it really annoys me when ppl talk about how badly they want to leave here, as if this is an awful place to grow up. i feel extremely lucky to have been able to live here for so long. and ill miss it :( and my house, and mi madre y padre.... y even mi hermano o.O
i feel like ive been looking forward to college for so long, and i know that it cant live up to all that ive been imagining it to be. oy. hard to describe. and gahh! i really cant wait until march to hear from the rest of my schools. and ive been thinking about all of the schools ive applied to (so far 10, i have just one more app left!) and i really dont know what my top choice is after the three schools which i have very little chance getting into. no idea. ahh. dont know how ill decide. sorry for this... big jumble of not making sense. :)
anyway, happy holidays everyone!