I'm wearing too much makeup.
I felt a bad day coming on so I tried to cover it up on my face I guess. I have a tendency to do that. It hasn't really been a terrible day but I've just been in a fog for most of it. I'm just thinking of things I shouldn't be thinking about and worrying about things I don't need to worry about and not thinking about the things I should be thinking about. I'm concerned about school and work among other things like a normal college student and I'm concerned about paying bills on schedule and keeping my financial responsibilities in check like a good adult. I'm concerned about guys and what I want and who I want. I did the whole 'keeping my options open' thing thinking it would be a smart decision but now it's really not. One of them made a pretty profound statement to me today and it just knocked me off my feet. It just hit somewhere in me and almost brought me to tears. I don't know what to do with anything anymore. I don't think I ever really did actually.