"Always look on the bright side of life."

[lil_pixie_dust]

I feel like my life is spinning in too many directions at once and I'm just holding on to the merry-go-round, trying not to fall off.

• I got my Halloween casting.  I've been told that three of the tracks I am subbing require a lot of energy and are very difficult, so I'm getting worried.  This is paid work...I have to do it well.  Not to mention if I hope to do anything after this, I'm going to need to do it justice, too.
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• I'm in the tap ensemble and understudying for "Dames at Sea."  I get to be at all of the rehearsals (not that I really have time for that) and I'm learning tap choreography for the first time.  I've never tapped in my life and I feel particularly clueless about what I just did in rehearsal last night.  I feel overweight compared to the other girls and I know that I don't know what I'm doing.  I'm faking most of it.  And I feel like a cheat when the director tells me how good it looks, even though he knows I'm cheating.  I don't want to cheat.  I want to do it.
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• My second job starts today.  (Yes I got the call!)  That's actually the one thing I'm not worried about right now.  I love kids and I do enjoy teaching.  Plus, I'm excited for the curriculum.  I think I'm going to do well.
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• The girl who is supposedly moving into our apartment owes me a bulk of money by the end of the month.  I've only seen a small portion and I'm worried she won't pay the rest in time.  (Though I guess it's late already, so what's a few more weeks?  Ugh..)
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• And, just for the sake of entertainment, I got sick yesterday.  Sniffles and sneezing all day long.  Joy...bliss...rapture...
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• To top it all off, Josh leaves in six days.  I don't feel as bad about it as I did last Christmas, but it still won't be easy.  All I can say is thank God for Clara, Crystal, and Skype.

I need some time to breathe...just breathe.

(Too bad I'm congested.)