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wow..im really pissed off now.. i was just clickin around on ppls journals and ppls friends lists and i came to this girl andreas journal..who happens to be one of billys ex girlfriends...and bein the nosey ass that i am..i read it.. and i read that her and billys song was 'lets stay together' by al green..but umm he dedicated that song to me too!! umm thats a little fucked up.. and kinda wierd and wrong.. then i read some of billys old entries..and the way he talked about andrea was crazy..he seemed like he really loved her..but then he told me that i was the most amazing girl he ever met..and that when hes wit me he gets this wierd/good feeling in his stomach and that he loves me so much..well u kno wat im starting to question all the shit hes told me..when he probably tells all his girlfreinds that..bc u kno wat i believed it all bc i really truly loved him..and now i dont even kno why i believed everything he ever told me..i trusted him that i was hearing the truth from him..and then he had the nerve to tell me i had no trust..well u kno wat.. i just dont kno anymore..im cryin my fuckin eyes out right now..its bad enough that im still upset about the break up too...i love him so much..and i feel like such an ass right now.. i dont kno wat to think..wat to do..wat to say.. im so confused..i need to get my shit together..but i dont kno wat it is that needs to be together im so lost.