MY W0RSt NiGhtMARE..CAME t0 lIfE
it happened..and im in a depression.. billy and i broke up..he did it over the phone?! 2 days before our 4 month anniversary..2 days before i went back home from florida..and 2 days before he leaves for his cruise..coincidence? im not sure..all i kno is that im really really hurt..he really broke my heart..i feel so empty and lonely alot now..really often i just dont feel myself anymore..like its not me without him..but he said he still loves me..but if thats really true he wouldnt have broken up wit me in the first place.. and even if it is true and under the circumstances that be broke up wit me for it just kills me that i was completely innocent..i did nothing wrong to deserve a broken heart..i was nothing but good to him..and i love him so much..i still do..i hope things work themselves out in some wierd way..if we just wind up being friends i hope were actually friends that talk and hang out not just 'friends' meaning we just dont hate eachother.. and if we do wind up goin back out..i hope the things that made this time go bad are corrected so that next chance we get is perfect.. getting a second chance is slim tho..since second chances are rarely given in any thing in life..watever im gettin too deep into this..the fact of the matter is: im hurt.billy dumped me.my heart is broken.it needs time to heal.i miss him.i hope he comes back to me.i love him<3
nick lennon is my hero..hes helped me soo much tonite he originally called to wish me a happy 4 months! butt umm...there was no point in that one..but tonite he showed me wat a great person he is.. he talked wit me about my problem..and how i feel and that he has felt the same exact way before..its great being able to talk to someone who can not only comfort u but knows wat ur goin thru also..thanks man! your the best-*x0ox..bff-*
liz and gary-- i love u guys! gary ur so funny! lol liz..ur amazing ur the perfect best friend..and i dont kno wat id do without you.. u guys helped me get thru it bc liz u talked wit me..and made me laugh..i love you..ur like a sister to me ive known u my whole life i dont kno how i live without u right by me anymore!!and gary ur comment was too funny.. lol u helped too* heyy dont forget about ben!! haha x0ox--1434--
alaina-- ur so strong..and i admire u for it..your the best! i dont kno wat i would do without u listenin to all my crazy shit that i go through day in and day out..i feel bad at times..bc u dont have to put up wit my shit but u do anyway..i love you sweetie! 143333*bff*lylas*x0ox
nick lennon is my hero..hes helped me soo much tonite he originally called to wish me a happy 4 months! butt umm...there was no point in that one..but tonite he showed me wat a great person he is.. he talked wit me about my problem..and how i feel and that he has felt the same exact way before..its great being able to talk to someone who can not only comfort u but knows wat ur goin thru also..thanks man! your the best-*x0ox..bff-*
liz and gary-- i love u guys! gary ur so funny! lol liz..ur amazing ur the perfect best friend..and i dont kno wat id do without you.. u guys helped me get thru it bc liz u talked wit me..and made me laugh..i love you..ur like a sister to me ive known u my whole life i dont kno how i live without u right by me anymore!!and gary ur comment was too funny.. lol u helped too* heyy dont forget about ben!! haha x0ox--1434--
alaina-- ur so strong..and i admire u for it..your the best! i dont kno wat i would do without u listenin to all my crazy shit that i go through day in and day out..i feel bad at times..bc u dont have to put up wit my shit but u do anyway..i love you sweetie! 143333*bff*lylas*x0ox