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Hey everyone. What's up?
Not a whole lot here, working and going to school mostly. My new job is ok. It just sucks that I dont get alot of hours. Nobody does there because there are so many hosts. So I either need to get a new job entirely or get a second one. We will see.
I miss Mike like WHOA! I got a letter from him yesterday which was the highlight of my day I must admit. God I love him so damn much. And even though I dont get to see him everyday, or any day at the moment, everyday that I wake up with him on my mind, I fall even more in love than the day before. There is a song that I heard and one line in it was "I love you more today than I did yesterday, but not as much as I will love you tomorrow." It is so true. This is the man that I want to marry. I'm dead freaking serious. Where ever he gets stationed, guess who is going to go too.... me. I love him that much that I will pack up and go with him if he asks me, which I am sure he will because we already talked about it. The letter was so sweet. Bootcamp is hard, he said but he likes it. Which is such a relief! He said that he wants to be with me forever, and that he cant wait till the day he graduates and comes home. I cant either. I want to be with him forever too. And while that is the scariest thing ever to think about, its so true. It's not so much that I told myself that, its like I FEEL it. Something is just so right with him. I was so tired of being hurt that I put so many walls up. I didnt think that I would ever love anyone. But Mike came along and just walked right on into my heart. It was so easy. If soul mates really do exist, then Mike is mine. He makes me want everything that I never wanted before. Dude, for everyone who knows me and my stand on being pregnant......yeah you know! Forget it. I want to have his kids! I want to be a mother so bad! Now THAT is some scary shit!!!!! But I see moms in the stores with their kids, and I want it so bad. I want it with Mike!! I want a house, I want a life, I want to be cooking dinner when he comes home from work or from the Navy. I want to be DOMESTIC! Haha! Go figure! Me....domestic????? Whew.
I love him so much. I miss sleeping next to him, and waking up next to him, or have him wake me up with a sweet goodmorning kiss, like he's done before. I just want to BE with him.
Well I am just chillen before class starts, so I gotta stop before I bring myself to tears!!! Which I seem very prone to doing so lately. Ah god love really throws you for a loop!! Hehe, but this is a ride that I would gladly ride again, as long as it was with the same person!!! :o)
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