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He deleted me today off facebook. I expected it, but it still hurts. I would never of done so. He blasted me without putting my name up on facebook. I would never do that. This is so so stupid. I feel like a piece of me has been ripped out of me. This hurts more then a break up. I don't know how to deal. We share a birthday, which is going to make it weird for me.
No matter how much of an asshole he has been to me, I miss him. Sometimes horribly. I want my old brother back. The one who was sweet, nice. Not cold and bitter. I guess I can't have that. He won't change. He hates me for this. For me calling the cops. For the prosecutor asking for a continuance yesterday. For this being continued. It's all about him and how he is getting blamed for something he didn't do. I feel so aggravated that he is thinking this way. He's not seeing the truth in all this. That this is merely about him taking responsibility for his actions.
This is gonna hurt for a while. I know I will randomly feel pain about him. I feel weird talking about him. Like he's in my life, when obviously now he's not. *cries a little* I wish I had someone who understood why this hurts so much. He's my twin. He's the one who promised me he'd never not be there for me.
No matter how much of an asshole he has been to me, I miss him. Sometimes horribly. I want my old brother back. The one who was sweet, nice. Not cold and bitter. I guess I can't have that. He won't change. He hates me for this. For me calling the cops. For the prosecutor asking for a continuance yesterday. For this being continued. It's all about him and how he is getting blamed for something he didn't do. I feel so aggravated that he is thinking this way. He's not seeing the truth in all this. That this is merely about him taking responsibility for his actions.
This is gonna hurt for a while. I know I will randomly feel pain about him. I feel weird talking about him. Like he's in my life, when obviously now he's not. *cries a little* I wish I had someone who understood why this hurts so much. He's my twin. He's the one who promised me he'd never not be there for me.