Stephanie's Long Posts return!
I'm feelin good tonight
I'm really happy about how class went (despite the fact that it took me 30 minutes to find parking)
I've been feeling really.. down, about my painting. It's not like I'm trying to be modest and get compliments by being like, "oh I suck! pity me!"
I've just been kind of, disapointed in the direction its gone, its not really what I wanted from it.
but I did this chalky pastel thing in class
and it's goin, really really good. I'm lovin it. I'm really excited haha... Its when I randomly happen to do shit like that without even trying that it makes me happy and more confident about this whole, prospective art school deal
its all purple and greeneyyellowish
(and of course its of a model, she was sitting)
and I'm... yes, I'm feelin good
and less stressed because I'm realizing I don' thave a whole lottashit to do, I mean I've got D's presents all done already and I just need to do Honni'es and if I just sit down and DO Them, they really shouldn't take too long here.
yess..
I've been feeling so weird lately, now that summer is nearing
I figured out its because in the past year, I have changed.. very little.
I mean, since like, 6th grade, every year I've undergone some drastic change.
at the end of 7th grade I was drastically different than at the end of 6th, at the end of 8th drastically different than 7th (entering high school, all that jazz), 9th different than 8th, so on so forth
but really, not a WHOLE lot has changed in the past year
I mean sure shit has happened, and I've certainly grown (or something)
but its just like, it does not feel like a year has passed at all.
when I look at who I was a year ago, its like... the same person. and thats. STRANGE. for me.
Probably because I still hang out with basically the same people (With a few additions/changed relationships)
and act the same
and have the same views
look the same
wear the same sort of clothes
listen to the same sort of music...
I dunno in a way its sort of comforting to know that I've finally just settled down and accepted who I am, like I'm "comfortable in my skin" as the art teacher would say...
but at the same time.. its just so strange to... have seen this year pass.
I guess.
hmm...
Just something thats sort of interesting to think about.
I'm really happy about how class went (despite the fact that it took me 30 minutes to find parking)
I've been feeling really.. down, about my painting. It's not like I'm trying to be modest and get compliments by being like, "oh I suck! pity me!"
I've just been kind of, disapointed in the direction its gone, its not really what I wanted from it.
but I did this chalky pastel thing in class
and it's goin, really really good. I'm lovin it. I'm really excited haha... Its when I randomly happen to do shit like that without even trying that it makes me happy and more confident about this whole, prospective art school deal
its all purple and greeneyyellowish
(and of course its of a model, she was sitting)
and I'm... yes, I'm feelin good
and less stressed because I'm realizing I don' thave a whole lottashit to do, I mean I've got D's presents all done already and I just need to do Honni'es and if I just sit down and DO Them, they really shouldn't take too long here.
yess..
I've been feeling so weird lately, now that summer is nearing
I figured out its because in the past year, I have changed.. very little.
I mean, since like, 6th grade, every year I've undergone some drastic change.
at the end of 7th grade I was drastically different than at the end of 6th, at the end of 8th drastically different than 7th (entering high school, all that jazz), 9th different than 8th, so on so forth
but really, not a WHOLE lot has changed in the past year
I mean sure shit has happened, and I've certainly grown (or something)
but its just like, it does not feel like a year has passed at all.
when I look at who I was a year ago, its like... the same person. and thats. STRANGE. for me.
Probably because I still hang out with basically the same people (With a few additions/changed relationships)
and act the same
and have the same views
look the same
wear the same sort of clothes
listen to the same sort of music...
I dunno in a way its sort of comforting to know that I've finally just settled down and accepted who I am, like I'm "comfortable in my skin" as the art teacher would say...
but at the same time.. its just so strange to... have seen this year pass.
I guess.
hmm...
Just something thats sort of interesting to think about.