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last night i told matt i'm not going to southern and if i get accepted to eastern then im gonna go there. he didnt take that too good. i know he isnt happy about the idea of me being at a different college, but what else am i suppose to do? my parents dont want to send me to southern and i can't pay for it myself. i dont wanna go to naugutuck valley or the waterbury u conn cuz i NEED to get outta here. i feel so crappy about going to eastern. he asked me not to go...this whole week all i've been doing is everything wrong in this relationship. he thinkings if we go to different schools we're gonna break up which isnt true. i dont think he trusts me, even though he says he does. i just want him to be happy and chipper again.
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