Been A Long While
Yes yes I know its been a long while... But what can I say the depression has set in tho I've been taking everything the wrong way lately... I don't want to do anything... I didn't even want to go to hockey friday but was made too.. I feel like disappearing for awhile.
We have court tomarrow ... Yah! Got to love that... I am ready for this to be over with I'm ready to move on. I need this woman to leave us alone she doesn't. She's a cynical bitch... She has to dwell on others life and I'm refusing to let her Make me feel this way...
Though it does look like i'm gonna have to move. At first we weren't going to but we have to do something to get a peace of mind... I mean I thought I was having a nervous breakdown cause of this woman.. I am not able to cope with this shit anymore.. The stress has already pushed me over the line and has made me physically ill with being diabetic.. Which now i have something that i can't get rid of and my boss treats me like i'm gimpy..
Dale has been very cranky ... not that I can blame him heavens knows I can't... But this woman is trying to run my life and blah...
So the Plan is to move to Virginia Never been there... *shrug* change will do me good... I suppose ... Dale's half way excited about it. He says he's ready for a change... I can't blame him ... The money thing blah So we gonna hold out till after christmas prolly cause we gonna pay some things off and stuff and get rid of a whole bunch of things.
We will see I estimate 6 To 8 monthes...We were gonna move to florida but i don't know I am not sure if i want to live down there...
The only I hate is starting over... Completely over with all my friends here and things ... *sobs* Guess got to start somewhere tho...
Maybe this will be a good thang you know... just maybe ... once we move maybe he will want to have children and start a family ... *shrug* who knows right now he says we are good with our family .... our doggies and kitty's I just dont know ... I need to go ... Far far far away from everything...
You know in that movie forest gump when jenny is little and running from her dad and she's in the field praying "dear God make me a bird so i can fly far far away" as stupid as it sounds thats the way i feel right now .. if god would make a me a bird so i could fly far far away i would....
Its not so much that I hate my life ... its not that at all ... I love everything in my life ... just sucks right now ... i'm working to make a rich man richer...
Shrug they shorted Dale 20 hours on his check and we waiting for it cause i didn't want them to cut him a check there cause they would of taken extra tax's out long story how it works
so that hurts badly ... but I don't care any more as long as I have electic and internet fuck the rest of the stuff...
I'm gonna have to go back to the doctor soon cause i'm gonna have to get a refill on meds but i can't afford to and the insurance we have from walmart sucks... I don't mean to whine but damn damn damn...
This shit of me being sick is not helping matters much...... The meds and test strips and stuff I can't afford I need a break from life i need to go far far away (theres teh bird analogy again).....
Anyways Later
We have court tomarrow ... Yah! Got to love that... I am ready for this to be over with I'm ready to move on. I need this woman to leave us alone she doesn't. She's a cynical bitch... She has to dwell on others life and I'm refusing to let her Make me feel this way...
Though it does look like i'm gonna have to move. At first we weren't going to but we have to do something to get a peace of mind... I mean I thought I was having a nervous breakdown cause of this woman.. I am not able to cope with this shit anymore.. The stress has already pushed me over the line and has made me physically ill with being diabetic.. Which now i have something that i can't get rid of and my boss treats me like i'm gimpy..
Dale has been very cranky ... not that I can blame him heavens knows I can't... But this woman is trying to run my life and blah...
So the Plan is to move to Virginia Never been there... *shrug* change will do me good... I suppose ... Dale's half way excited about it. He says he's ready for a change... I can't blame him ... The money thing blah So we gonna hold out till after christmas prolly cause we gonna pay some things off and stuff and get rid of a whole bunch of things.
We will see I estimate 6 To 8 monthes...We were gonna move to florida but i don't know I am not sure if i want to live down there...
The only I hate is starting over... Completely over with all my friends here and things ... *sobs* Guess got to start somewhere tho...
Maybe this will be a good thang you know... just maybe ... once we move maybe he will want to have children and start a family ... *shrug* who knows right now he says we are good with our family .... our doggies and kitty's I just dont know ... I need to go ... Far far far away from everything...
You know in that movie forest gump when jenny is little and running from her dad and she's in the field praying "dear God make me a bird so i can fly far far away" as stupid as it sounds thats the way i feel right now .. if god would make a me a bird so i could fly far far away i would....
Its not so much that I hate my life ... its not that at all ... I love everything in my life ... just sucks right now ... i'm working to make a rich man richer...
Shrug they shorted Dale 20 hours on his check and we waiting for it cause i didn't want them to cut him a check there cause they would of taken extra tax's out long story how it works
so that hurts badly ... but I don't care any more as long as I have electic and internet fuck the rest of the stuff...
I'm gonna have to go back to the doctor soon cause i'm gonna have to get a refill on meds but i can't afford to and the insurance we have from walmart sucks... I don't mean to whine but damn damn damn...
This shit of me being sick is not helping matters much...... The meds and test strips and stuff I can't afford I need a break from life i need to go far far away (theres teh bird analogy again).....
Anyways Later