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i dont know if i should laugh or cry lately. everything is so fucked up and know one relises that im killing inside. i try to hide it so well and im doin a good job. i get told by my sisters not to stress my mother out so instead of maybe getting something done i have to act all cheery bout everything. its so hard im gonna break soon im really goin to and for the first of many times in my life i feel so lonely and have no one to help me through it and it hurts but i still keep a happy face on. the scary thing about it is lately i have wished for death coz then i could just sleep and feel no pain. but life goes on i couldnt bare to be away from my babies. i miss so much....
it hurts so bad.
it hurts so bad.