stress
i havent slept one full night since i came back from texas. its pretty difficult when you realize you left half of yourself halfway across the country and that theres nothing you can do about it. im gonna love james for the rest of my life if i dont get to spend it with him. too bad so much shit got in the way of that.
coming back to work doesnt help. youd think it would take my mind off of everything but it just made it worse. cant concentrate, make a little mistake my first day back and im still trying to fix it. i shouldnt be getting paid crap for the shit im doing so it gets me thinking its not worth it. but when you have debt the last thing you have is a choice.
ive been hanging out with gemma and ed alot. they make me happy and get things off of my mind. i still dont think i can just bottle this feeling and try to explain it to anyone. plus it wouldnt help for anyone to know the whole story and everything bothering me because i know myself the only things that could fix it are out of my reach or something i just cant do now.
i dont know, when i dont sleep i think too much and my mind control over myself just dwindles.
and my car broke again. had to have my boss drive me to work. fun. her clock was five minutes past mine so i wasnt outside "when i was supposed to be"
yes this is what i need to hear at 6 20 am.
leave me the fuck alone.
sorry for my ranting. it just seems like everything sucks today.
coming back to work doesnt help. youd think it would take my mind off of everything but it just made it worse. cant concentrate, make a little mistake my first day back and im still trying to fix it. i shouldnt be getting paid crap for the shit im doing so it gets me thinking its not worth it. but when you have debt the last thing you have is a choice.
ive been hanging out with gemma and ed alot. they make me happy and get things off of my mind. i still dont think i can just bottle this feeling and try to explain it to anyone. plus it wouldnt help for anyone to know the whole story and everything bothering me because i know myself the only things that could fix it are out of my reach or something i just cant do now.
i dont know, when i dont sleep i think too much and my mind control over myself just dwindles.
and my car broke again. had to have my boss drive me to work. fun. her clock was five minutes past mine so i wasnt outside "when i was supposed to be"
yes this is what i need to hear at 6 20 am.
leave me the fuck alone.
sorry for my ranting. it just seems like everything sucks today.