life changes in good ways, too.
right now im listening to the snake the cross the crown- empires
ive been listening to it alot lately. considering i almost died right before i heard it, it brings back the feeling of when you just get out of a near death experience and your reminded what life really is. im sure you all know what i mean. everytime ill hear it ill just hear my own relief.
i FINALLY got limewire on my computer, so the first thing i did was download atmosphere by joy division because im pretty sure me and mike are going to try to cover it soon. im excited. i have such a craving to get the music out of me. justin, you take note as well. once your out of work give me a call and we'll get this done haha.
i think a party pretty much changed my life the other night. in norton, of all places, one drunken night completely changed my outlook on my whole position right now. like i realized so many things that i was just dragging myself down with, and i completely loosened up in a matter of hours. by the time i left, i had three new numbers with complete intention of parting with these people again. dancing, random voicemails, everything. and i met a cute irish redhead that talked to me for about two hours. it was so chill, and just happy, a word i havent visited enough recently.
tonight i played pool with ryan(irish boy) and two of his friends. the girls kicked the boy's asses. i never even liked playing pool before just simply because i was too self conscious and negative, so it made me play bad. now i dont care, and its the greatest feeling in the world.
my friends have completely cheered me up. and i thank them for that. when things havent been panning out how you want them to, you realize quickly who your real friends are.
i hung out with steve before ryan today, which was fun as usual. i can talk to him about absolutely everything because hes practically the same person as me except he's a male and is far more hyper. i always feel better after hanging out with him.
ive also become ridiculously obsessed with death cab for cutie. ive just started to realize the genius i guess.
im going to check back on applications at panera bread and hilliards tomorrow, and im checking out a rehabilitation center thats hiring CNA's for really good wages. that one will be competitive though, those kinds of jobs are, and with only one job under my belt ill have to seem really interested. but will college kids going back to school the job hunt should hopefully come to an end soon.
as hard as it will be im going to try not to stress about boys for senior year. i need my grades to be up there. and ill be working my ass off trying to get scholarships considering i have no money and will have to pay for it myself.
so i decided that during the summertime i do the most growing up. its always during summertime that i have those life changing experiences that just wake me up. i love the feeling. once your ok with yourself, the rollercoaster emotions of being a teenager dont seem so bad anymore. and thats all you really need.
but i need to get up early tomorrow to help my dad give my cat a pill : ( the poor thing.
goodnight. and leave comments, i dont have my cellphone so the computer will be my communication.
adiossss :)
ive been listening to it alot lately. considering i almost died right before i heard it, it brings back the feeling of when you just get out of a near death experience and your reminded what life really is. im sure you all know what i mean. everytime ill hear it ill just hear my own relief.
i FINALLY got limewire on my computer, so the first thing i did was download atmosphere by joy division because im pretty sure me and mike are going to try to cover it soon. im excited. i have such a craving to get the music out of me. justin, you take note as well. once your out of work give me a call and we'll get this done haha.
i think a party pretty much changed my life the other night. in norton, of all places, one drunken night completely changed my outlook on my whole position right now. like i realized so many things that i was just dragging myself down with, and i completely loosened up in a matter of hours. by the time i left, i had three new numbers with complete intention of parting with these people again. dancing, random voicemails, everything. and i met a cute irish redhead that talked to me for about two hours. it was so chill, and just happy, a word i havent visited enough recently.
tonight i played pool with ryan(irish boy) and two of his friends. the girls kicked the boy's asses. i never even liked playing pool before just simply because i was too self conscious and negative, so it made me play bad. now i dont care, and its the greatest feeling in the world.
my friends have completely cheered me up. and i thank them for that. when things havent been panning out how you want them to, you realize quickly who your real friends are.
i hung out with steve before ryan today, which was fun as usual. i can talk to him about absolutely everything because hes practically the same person as me except he's a male and is far more hyper. i always feel better after hanging out with him.
ive also become ridiculously obsessed with death cab for cutie. ive just started to realize the genius i guess.
im going to check back on applications at panera bread and hilliards tomorrow, and im checking out a rehabilitation center thats hiring CNA's for really good wages. that one will be competitive though, those kinds of jobs are, and with only one job under my belt ill have to seem really interested. but will college kids going back to school the job hunt should hopefully come to an end soon.
as hard as it will be im going to try not to stress about boys for senior year. i need my grades to be up there. and ill be working my ass off trying to get scholarships considering i have no money and will have to pay for it myself.
so i decided that during the summertime i do the most growing up. its always during summertime that i have those life changing experiences that just wake me up. i love the feeling. once your ok with yourself, the rollercoaster emotions of being a teenager dont seem so bad anymore. and thats all you really need.
but i need to get up early tomorrow to help my dad give my cat a pill : ( the poor thing.
goodnight. and leave comments, i dont have my cellphone so the computer will be my communication.
adiossss :)