School day Blues
I hate my new school.
Yeah, more boys like me here, and yeah, my new friends aren't so bad... But it isn't home. I don't have the belongingness I used to have. I used to feel pretty damn secure in the fact that my friends really loved me... Now it's really hard. The classwork is 100% easier, so the only class I'm really having troubles in is Chem, but there wasn't any way that I wouldn't. I mean, because I finished all my creds so early for math, I haven't even thought about it really. BIG mistake. Oh well.
I keep getting e-mails from my friends about how much they miss me... I think they're trying to show me how much they care, but it just makes my sadness worse.
Still don't have any meds.
This morning I couldn't get out of bed, even though mom was screaming at me, so she popped a Xanax into my mouth. Gawd. Life sucks.
I just want to go home, but I haven't figured out which place I want to call home.
Yeah, more boys like me here, and yeah, my new friends aren't so bad... But it isn't home. I don't have the belongingness I used to have. I used to feel pretty damn secure in the fact that my friends really loved me... Now it's really hard. The classwork is 100% easier, so the only class I'm really having troubles in is Chem, but there wasn't any way that I wouldn't. I mean, because I finished all my creds so early for math, I haven't even thought about it really. BIG mistake. Oh well.
I keep getting e-mails from my friends about how much they miss me... I think they're trying to show me how much they care, but it just makes my sadness worse.
Still don't have any meds.
This morning I couldn't get out of bed, even though mom was screaming at me, so she popped a Xanax into my mouth. Gawd. Life sucks.
I just want to go home, but I haven't figured out which place I want to call home.