Alarm Clock Mentality
i am so tired. i just want to go lie down, in my bed, and never wake up again. life is too much struggle, and not enough reward. i get so fed up sometimes, i just can't stand it anymore. i don't do anything worng, but i don't do anything right. and i can't go to the doctor, my insurnace is fucked up, i haven't had my meds in like 2 weeks, and it's catching up, and it's going to swallow me. but i don't think that medicine can fix me anyway, i think it's just me, i don't think that they got the diagnosis right, there isn't anyway... just because i get sad and happy and stuff doesn't mean i'm bi freaking polar, the stupid idiots. i haven't been taking them for 2 and a half weeks and i was perfectly fine until today, so what ever.and i hope that enveryone dies, i'm in a bad mood, i'm going back to bed now.