I dont even know
Life. . . oh what a complex thing it is. Lately I should be thrilled that I finally have a job and yet I am still unhappy. I can't stop thinking about patrick and that is literally eating away at my insides.
Yeah I am normally super happy and energetic but to be honest lately I just feel down. The last guy I connected with just completely blew me off. I can't seem to find anyone that makes me feel the way patrick did.
Yeah sorry I am hung up over an ex, it happens to the best of people! I wish the feelings would just go away but they don't. I feel like it is my self harm addiction all over again. I know I need to stop thinking about him and everyone tells me this but I just. . . .cant. .
"You were too young to be in love" Bullshit. I hate when people say that. I know what we had was LOVE, in all its glory. Then he went off to fucking Iraq and everything changed. It was really hard to argue over the internet.
I just hate seeing him say that his new girlfriend of what 2 months is the love of his life when that is what he told me. He is telling her everything he used on me. . .That is making me sick to my stomach.
I really do not know what to do anymore. I planned my whole life with him and in one email it was shattered into a million pieces along with my heart. He was the one thing in my life I actually believed would turn out okay, and look what happened? It went to hell just like everything else seems to.
I just need a good cry to be honest. I have not cried in a while and all these emotions are eating me up.
Yeah I am normally super happy and energetic but to be honest lately I just feel down. The last guy I connected with just completely blew me off. I can't seem to find anyone that makes me feel the way patrick did.
Yeah sorry I am hung up over an ex, it happens to the best of people! I wish the feelings would just go away but they don't. I feel like it is my self harm addiction all over again. I know I need to stop thinking about him and everyone tells me this but I just. . . .cant. .
"You were too young to be in love" Bullshit. I hate when people say that. I know what we had was LOVE, in all its glory. Then he went off to fucking Iraq and everything changed. It was really hard to argue over the internet.
I just hate seeing him say that his new girlfriend of what 2 months is the love of his life when that is what he told me. He is telling her everything he used on me. . .That is making me sick to my stomach.
I really do not know what to do anymore. I planned my whole life with him and in one email it was shattered into a million pieces along with my heart. He was the one thing in my life I actually believed would turn out okay, and look what happened? It went to hell just like everything else seems to.
I just need a good cry to be honest. I have not cried in a while and all these emotions are eating me up.