Me Within Me

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I wrote this recently. . .I was not gonna post it but decided to anyways.

I've kept myself locked away, hiding, and waiting.
Storing my feelings inside,
Pretending that I am much more than what I am.
I hold back my pain,
I also never ask the questions that need to be asked.
In-fact.... I never ask questions at all.

The thoughts keep spinning,
The words keep pressing to escape.
I want to scream the ideas out,
And just flood the world with the impossible words.

Starting to see now,
All the things that need to be fixed,
Starting to slowly repair the damage that I let age,
And mirror myself after the person I was meant to be.

Lost within myself,
I pretend to be just enough okay.
To make it through the day,
I think over and over again,
How and why,
I got this way.
I long to be back to happy,
Its starting to return to me,
I just hope it hasn't been far too long for me to remember what it feels like.

The only reason i am still in one piece,
Is hope that the a happy future isn't so far away...