Sixth Capsule
[Despite all them pesky "PRIVATE + UNHACKABLE" tags, an out-and-about X has seen enough strangeness and marriage complaints to put two and two together. The final case-cracker for this conclusion was Tear's entry on the subject. HA. CHRIS AND ETHAN, YOU GUYS CAN EAT IT. EAT IT. I WASN'T THE DICK THIS TIME. =D Or rather, I didn't manipulate X
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[FILTERED HENCEFORTH]
It does feel uncomfortably vivid, Yomiko. I...I'm still not sure know what I should make of it.
More importantly, how are you holding up?
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But, I remember being so happy...
...you were happy too, Mr. X?
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But that doesn't make any sense. And why do I only remember her? I've been waiting to remember something about my world, anything -- anything that could explain why I'm not a human, or why I have so many functions geared exclusively towards combat, or even something like who made me, what I enjoyed in life, who I was or how I lived. And now, the only thing I remember, it...it might not even be real. Why? If Eden knows what it's doing, and it has to...why does it do this? Why are the gods doing this?
...If I really loved her, then the island's started off by giving me back one of the most important things of my existence. But if I didn't...
[A gap between words, and an all-too-human sound of frustration on the other end of the journal. I don't know if Yomiko heard it since I'm still fuzzy on the journals, but mun-to-mun knowledge ( ... )
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...Mr. X? Please don't talk about yourself like that. It... makes me sad to hear that you think of yourself as someone that doesn't deserve the exact same happiness that everyone does. You might be different from a lot of the people here in Memento Eden, but you're still a person, and a very good one. You look out for others and have always been so kind... You're my friend and I think that any person would be lucky to be married to you.
So please... don't say things like that... and don't believe them either.
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I'm sorry, Yomiko. I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me. You shouldn't have been on the receiving end; you didn't deserve it. I apologize.
The strange thing is, I've never thought of myself as inferior to anyone in Memento Eden. I seem to be the only robot, and...that does raise questions, but I get by just fine. It only bothered me when I connected Fiona to it. It's just...
Maybe that's it. I'm usually good at keeping my feelings under control, but I've never felt before what I do now. Maybe what I read about love only being love if it's madness has something to it, because my emotions are going so wild it's hard to think straight. I want Fiona. I want her, Yomiko, and I didn't think I could even feel...human desire like this. How could this not be the island's work? Even if I really cared about her, as a friend, how...just how? This is a human feeling. It relies on things I know I don't have. How can I ( ... )
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Yomiko...
[He wants to argue the "nothing wrong" point with her, but can't bring himself to do so. He leaves it, for now.]
[In fact, he leaves just about everything, because she has effectively rendered him speechless. You've touched his artifical heart again, Yomiko, though in a way different from last time. Despite that electronic brain, he has no idea how to help. Every possible idea is counteracted with the possibility of deceit on the gods' part. He does finally venture something, though.]We have to deal with this however we can. That means doing what's right - for ourselves and the person we're with. Our emotions can make it hard to figure out what that is. Even if what we're feeling is a manipulation on the part of Memento Eden, maybe...maybe there's nothing wrong with it. It's love, after all. As long as we don't let it compel us to do things we know we shouldn't ( ... )
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...I think it would be best to speak with Nenene. I need to find out what she remembers and how she feels.
Thank you, Mr. X. You helped me feel more determined to not run away...
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You're welcome. Glad I could help out.
...If you need anything, you know who to call. Hang in there. You can make it through this.
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We'll be alright...
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