Sixth Capsule
[Despite all them pesky "PRIVATE + UNHACKABLE" tags, an out-and-about X has seen enough strangeness and marriage complaints to put two and two together. The final case-cracker for this conclusion was Tear's entry on the subject. HA. CHRIS AND ETHAN, YOU GUYS CAN EAT IT. EAT IT. I WASN'T THE DICK THIS TIME. =D Or rather, I didn't manipulate X
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I'm sorry, Yomiko. I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me. You shouldn't have been on the receiving end; you didn't deserve it. I apologize.
The strange thing is, I've never thought of myself as inferior to anyone in Memento Eden. I seem to be the only robot, and...that does raise questions, but I get by just fine. It only bothered me when I connected Fiona to it. It's just...
Maybe that's it. I'm usually good at keeping my feelings under control, but I've never felt before what I do now. Maybe what I read about love only being love if it's madness has something to it, because my emotions are going so wild it's hard to think straight. I want Fiona. I want her, Yomiko, and I didn't think I could even feel...human desire like this. How could this not be the island's work? Even if I really cared about her, as a friend, how...just how? This is a human feeling. It relies on things I know I don't have. How can I believe that my creator designed this into me when it's only coming out now, just before a holiday about romantic love? I barely knew Fiona before today. Suddenly she's all I can think about, and I can't...I just can't figure it out.
Um...having said all that. I don't know how to say this the right way now, but I really appreciate what you just told me, Yomiko. I...well, you're my friend too. You're one of the best things I have in Memento Eden right now. Even if I can't remember who I am or where I come from...I have the people I care about, right here at home. And until I remember, this is where home is.
Besides...you're right. It's only a matter of time until we find the truth of all this. And I'll remember something eventually. I have to. It's...it's just a matter of time. I just need to give it time.
[I am a cruel mun, it seems. I don't know if what X described is even supposed to be possible for this event, but I'm running with it. Hopefully I won't be breakin' any modplans with that...]
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You know... I've remembered being in love with someone before. It was such a wonderful feeling. I felt... just... it was indescribable really. I cared for that person so strongly and felt their affection in return. And now, everyone remembers feeling the same... happy memories, happy times... Accepting another and being accepted in return. There's nothing wrong with desiring a companionship like that. There's nothing unnatural about wanting a person to look at you in a way that they look at no one else...
The memories I recently remembered... they're so appealing. So much it's almost heartrending. It's... so sad to think that we might have felt this way, this strongly for someone else... and then forgot about it entirely. It's even worse to think that the memories, the emotions... might not be genuine. I only met Nenene very recently here in Memento Eden, and I liked her very much. She seemed like someone who could be a wonderful friend... and now I remember standing beside her in a white wedding dress made of paper, feeling blissfully happy. I just... don't know what to think. And now... I don't know what to say to her. I feel like the worst type of coward...
I know giving it time is the only solution we'll probably get... but it still seems rather cruel...
...Thank you, Mr. X. I'm glad that we're good friends...
[I like it! Very poignant! Watch me wibble! Two thumbs up!]
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Yomiko...
[He wants to argue the "nothing wrong" point with her, but can't bring himself to do so. He leaves it, for now.]
[In fact, he leaves just about everything, because she has effectively rendered him speechless. You've touched his artifical heart again, Yomiko, though in a way different from last time. Despite that electronic brain, he has no idea how to help. Every possible idea is counteracted with the possibility of deceit on the gods' part. He does finally venture something, though.]
We have to deal with this however we can. That means doing what's right - for ourselves and the person we're with. Our emotions can make it hard to figure out what that is. Even if what we're feeling is a manipulation on the part of Memento Eden, maybe...maybe there's nothing wrong with it. It's love, after all. As long as we don't let it compel us to do things we know we shouldn't...
I know you just met Nenene, but hear me out. Would you regret not being with her if this event ended and everything returned to normal? Think like Yomiko would without the influences. If you knew in advance, beyond doubt, that you were going to fall in love, regardless of whether or not you had memories to go with it, would you back away?
[Cheesy? Maybe. But his emotions are running high, after all. And he is kinda tryin' to deal with his own chaos at the same time. You'd think electronic brains would be better at it, huh? Hope he doesn't sound too much like me there, either; the muse is being rather insistent.)
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...I think it would be best to speak with Nenene. I need to find out what she remembers and how she feels.
Thank you, Mr. X. You helped me feel more determined to not run away...
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You're welcome. Glad I could help out.
...If you need anything, you know who to call. Hang in there. You can make it through this.
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We'll be alright...
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