Count your blessings on one hand

[lifespentasleep]

Everyone knows I get wedding and baby fever very easily. I'm highly susceptible. But lately, the more I watch those weddings shows I enjoy so much, the less I want my very own huge and personalized wedding. It seems like a fun idea, but if I think realistically, it makes me kind of sick. I definitely want to get married... but such a huge expense and making a big deal about it just is becoming more unappealing to me. Perhaps I'm just growing up and growing out of that phase. Having a tiny, more informal ceremony sounds better. Or not even having a real ceremony or reception. Who does that?

When did my aspirations and idealizations change so much?