Feb 17, 2010 00:45
Let's see who can be more passive aggressive...
You act so high and mighty, you say you're an adult and you're never going to change for anyone. Well it might be time to re-evaluate your life and make a change. You have a lot of growing up to do and need to start thinking more logically. Not everything can be in the moment, that doesn't really get you anywhere far. You need to get over yourself, swallow your "pride", and admit you're wrong once in a while. Just because someone else is willing to point out your flaws doesn't mean you're a complete failure or something. You're flawed, but so is everyone else. It's not about covering up flaws, it's about working with them and knowing how to compensate. You need to know yourself better, or know a better version of yourself. You're a little child masquerading as an adult, and it's just sad that you think you can take care of yourself. I'm sure you love being independent and making your own choices, but part of that means knowing when you need help. You act like you've never heard the word "no", that you've never been confronted before. Well, guess what, you're nowhere near perfect. You've made bad decisions, and they have directly affected other people in a negative way. Apologies are necessary.
Maybe I'm being a coward for not coming forth, but sure, I'm scared. Truth is, if I did that, it would only possibly end the awkwardness. If anything gets worked out, it's only a solution to a temporary problem. You've made it so I don't trust you at all, and I have no interest in being your friend. I doubt either of us will ever change our minds about any of this, and we each will always think we are better than the other. Maybe it's that trying to fix this, making the first move, would be a concession. But no one really wins this. This isn't a battle, it's just stupidity.
We can go on ignoring absolutely everything, that's fine. If that's really what you want, then cut me out of your life as much as you can. Don't talk about me. Don't assume you know me, or that you ever did. Just drop it, completely.
I thought we could be better than this, but maybe not. I really wish I didn't care, but I obviously do. This all never should have happened, I don't think either of us can really deny that. I just don't know if there is a solution anymore.