It's a new day, but it all seems old
I can't help but find that negative feeling in the back of my mind. Maybe it's just me being paranoid and cautious and somewhat worrisome like usual, but I can't help but to have bad feelings about this. They're slight. Mostly good feelings, but the bad feelings creep in, too. I just have that doomed feeling that everything is going to hell. I don't want to think that. I want everything to be easier. But we all know it won't. It probably will only get harder, right? But I'm mostly focusing on the good, and there's enough of that to cover most of my negative thoughts.
The thing is, I do tend to think the worst of most situations. I plan for the worst outcome, so that I will be somewhat ready when everything goes south, and happily surprised when it goes well. Luckily enough, most things for which I have worried in my life have had the tendency to go really quite well for me. I've been lucky in life. I really do hope it keeps up, in all aspects. Yes, I'll work for the results, but I'm really going to need my luck and mystical pull in the universe within the next six months or so.
I just want to be a happy girl. In a happy relationship. Who has figured out what she's doing after she graduates. Who has a very solid plan.
Not a slightly confused girl whose happiness sometimes seems quite hinged. Who has no idea what to do, and entirely too many options, all of which involve quite a bit of planning and work. Who has really no plan and is increasingly upset by it.
The thing is, I do tend to think the worst of most situations. I plan for the worst outcome, so that I will be somewhat ready when everything goes south, and happily surprised when it goes well. Luckily enough, most things for which I have worried in my life have had the tendency to go really quite well for me. I've been lucky in life. I really do hope it keeps up, in all aspects. Yes, I'll work for the results, but I'm really going to need my luck and mystical pull in the universe within the next six months or so.
I just want to be a happy girl. In a happy relationship. Who has figured out what she's doing after she graduates. Who has a very solid plan.
Not a slightly confused girl whose happiness sometimes seems quite hinged. Who has no idea what to do, and entirely too many options, all of which involve quite a bit of planning and work. Who has really no plan and is increasingly upset by it.