Jul 07, 2009 11:46
Well, I certainly never saw this coming. And it's all happening so fast. Notably, at least in my mind, this all has served as a major distraction from what has been my train of thought for the summer so far. I've spent so much time thinking about one person, and I still do because I miss him, but now I'm distracted. And I don't feel so much of the feeling of holding out. I'm not sure yet if it's a good or bad thing, or if it's right or wrong; only time will tell, I suppose.
But it's all going so well. Much better than could have possibly been expected. I know it's cliche and entirely too soon, but I feel as if I've known him for a long time. I connect with him as if he's been a best friend for years. As silly as I know it is to rush into anything (especially considering my impending move back to school), I can't deny how right it feels. He makes me happy. So happy. I really really want it to work, and I know I've said and felt this before, but he is the kind of guy that makes me want to "go steady". I want to have a good, serious relationship with him. I want this to work so badly.
All summer, since I got back, I've been wanting to return to school for just about every reason. I've been so ready for the summer to fly by. And now, I wouldn't mind it slowing down.