The first album i ever bought was the debut album by Information Society because i was really into their song and video for [What's On Your Mind (Pure Energy)]. The first CD i ever bought was Invisible Touch by Genesis. The first album i ever bought as a download in FLAC form was Church with No Magic by PVT.

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The first place i ever kissed ( Read more... )

It didn't really hit me that a year has passed by since doozel's death until Jess texted me about it. It was interesting to monitor my reaction to her text, to her LJ entry about it, and my thoughts about what to say when i decided that this D entry was going to be for him.

Because when i wrote a year ago about it, i talked about how stupid and ( Read more... )

now that things are a little less crazy, this is me catching up on my weekend in PA for doozel's memorial. part one is here.
( cut for length )

So this past weekend i was in PA and NJ. The main reason was for doozel's memorial, but there was a side trip to go teach with the bushwackers. it ended up being a pretty amazing trip for me, and given my recent... heightened appreciation for people experiences and life experiences in general, it's important that i write it down before i forget ( Read more... )

got done two things on my list. probably the two least important things. annoying how grief can be paralyzing.

shower, then run a financial report, then we'll see how awake i still am.

i should write drill.

it's hard to be productive. today was a weird day because there was a wave of grief about doozel that hit me today. it put me in that numb space for a while again.

but fuck that. grief is important. mourning is important. but wallowing in it is not. everything has a time and place. i've gone through too much, seen ( Read more... )

A part of me finds it odd that this has affected me so much. i mean, it's not like i really knew dooz that well since a) his regular presence with the Crowd happened towards the end of my West Chester years and b) he was an incredibly quiet person whose aura was hard to read. My memory is generally spotty to begin with and my specific memories ( Read more... )