One of these days...

[lifeobservatory]

To say the least, things are complicated for me right now. Between friendships, relationships, family and school, I find myself in a constant emotional pain. I could, probably with little effort, readjust my life so I wouldn't have to suffer, but unfortunately if I did, the peace that I get from doing what I know is right in my heart would vanish. See, I'm in love with someone my parents will never approve of, appreciate, or get to know personally because of their own clouded minds. On the other side, this person refuses to believe that I am capable of approving of, appreciating, and get to know him personally and still loving him. Trying to being clarity to these two sides of my life has been frustrating to say the least. Why do they believe they can decide what is best for me, for my life? I know they love me, but honestly, I don't want anything to do with people like this...

But I love them, and with all my heart I hope that one day they will be able to see the world through my eyes, if only for a moment, and understand me.

For now, I am alone.