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Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive
Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
Look me in the eye and promise no love is like our love
I've never been in love.
I'm pretty good at finding people who hurt me though. Carl told me once that Matt probably never even really liked me that much, and his explanation for things somewhat made sense...but that kind of hurt. Then I just get to know assholes and can't get myself out of it fast enough because I'm too worried about not hurting other peoples feelings while they stomp all over me and use me. I wish i could just tell them their faults...how they dont hear a word i say because they are too busy talking about themselves, making me feel dumb, kissing bad yet the ego is as big as anyone I've ever know so I'm the one messing things up. You can't stay with someone who doesn't kiss well. Is that shallow? It would be easier if you could just have lessons...like swimming lessons. haha. Freshman year Erin and I talked about writing a "how to" guide and putting it on our endtable as a joke, but it could solve problems? haha im kidding, that would be rediculous
Now theres a new boy, and I like how he kisses. I lie to myself and say "no expectations" but what if I do fall and get hurt again? Should I do this?
Plans tomorrow night
Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
Look me in the eye and promise no love is like our love
I've never been in love.
I'm pretty good at finding people who hurt me though. Carl told me once that Matt probably never even really liked me that much, and his explanation for things somewhat made sense...but that kind of hurt. Then I just get to know assholes and can't get myself out of it fast enough because I'm too worried about not hurting other peoples feelings while they stomp all over me and use me. I wish i could just tell them their faults...how they dont hear a word i say because they are too busy talking about themselves, making me feel dumb, kissing bad yet the ego is as big as anyone I've ever know so I'm the one messing things up. You can't stay with someone who doesn't kiss well. Is that shallow? It would be easier if you could just have lessons...like swimming lessons. haha. Freshman year Erin and I talked about writing a "how to" guide and putting it on our endtable as a joke, but it could solve problems? haha im kidding, that would be rediculous
Now theres a new boy, and I like how he kisses. I lie to myself and say "no expectations" but what if I do fall and get hurt again? Should I do this?
Plans tomorrow night