Wow... just wow...
I am utterly and completely floored. Given the amount of smiling and giggling I've done today, I might be in shock. I waver between this dumbfounded look, random giggles, and ear to ear grins. This was unexpected. This was a complete surprise. This was an amazing evening, just simply amazing. It was so good it was surreal!
I suppose I should back up a little.
I'm on a polyamory forum. On said forum, a couple joined recently who live in town. The husband of the couple and I messaged back and forth a little and the conversation sort of dropped off. The day after feeling so horrid about having been broken up with J for 3 months, I had this strong sense hit me that basically said "Screw it, let's get a life going." Nevermind that my therapist has been threatening to not see me until I do. So, ok, I know I have at least one thing in common with these two. I sent a message asking them to come to my place for dinner. They passed on dinner at my place since it was a first meeting, but agreed to meet me elsewhere.
Now I admit, I had a feeling about this couple. I couldn't figure why exactly, but I wanted to meet them when they first appeared. At that time I just wasn't up to meeting anyone though.
I was nervous, but excited, all afternoon Friday and all day Saturday. I was just blown away when I was shown a picture of them. Not only did they look awesome, but there was a ... I don't know what to call that feeling. I only know that I was even MORE excited about meeting them.
We met up and I swear I have never in my life felt so immediately at ease around any one person, much less around two people. We talked for four and a half hours. When the place we met was closing down, we came back to my place because we didn't want to stop talking. We have so much in common it's just uncanny!
She was raised in a poly, pagan commune. He had experiences that led to a pagan form of belief. I didn't have to explain what I meant at every turn. They both believe in the primary relationship being recognized and respected, with boundaries set down clearly and early and being enforced. They both value honesty, even when it's uncomfortable. The ethics of dealing with other people in general are a complete match across the board.
We each told about how we ended up out here. We talked about random things and told funny stories and laughed and laughed. The conversation just kept going and going and I think if it hadn't turned to midnight where we were all starting to feel tired, we'd have talked until morning. We didn't DO anything ... we didn't go anywhere super special, there wasn't a specific activity we were meeting for, we just met up and totally enjoyed the evening.
After they left I ended up staying awake for another couple of hours because I just couldn't get over how amazing that was. When I did sleep, I only slept for about four hours, but woke feeling happy, refreshed, and still just blown away.
Then I got the happy surprise. They'd already written to me again. They had a great time to and want us to get together again soon.
Excuse me, I need to go dance around my home and giggle and grin some more! It's just the idea of meeting TWO people who have SO much in common with me! I don't have to pretend away ANYTHING about me! Do you know how much that just ROCKS!?
The best part of it, for me, I couldn't have thought up a better couple to fall in with. Will there be a friendship? Oh very likely. Will there be more than a friendship? Who knows!? (WHO CARES?!?) It's entirely possible as far as I can see. Let's just say that if things continue on such a positive track, I won't have much reason to be saying no. I admit, I'm kinda attracted to them both. Kinda ... *chuckle* ... ok, so yeah, attracted to both of them in a lot of ways. At the same time, like I said, it's not "OMG LOVE!" It's more of a "WOW! These two are AWESOME! I wanna know MORE!"
There are so many signs that the gods had a hand in this that I'm thinking very cautiously. Given the state of mind I've been in, it'd be far too easy to just up and decide "Oh! I'm saved!" or something stupid. It'd be too easy to rush things along in my excitement and miss signs of trouble. At the same time I keep looking at the things that I've been told in card readings that were done for me, looking at the sense of what others had about this event, at how things came about, and well, I can't deny, even if all we're going to be is really great friends, I'm thinking that the gods had to have had a little to do with orchestrating this one... and I'm thankful.
Nothing has been decided about when we'll get together again just yet. Well, aside from it clearly being a mutual desire to get together again.
I can't help thinking back to the couple I once dated, many many years ago... and wondering... is it possible that I'd find another couple I mesh with so well? Really possible?
I guess we'll find out!
I suppose I should back up a little.
I'm on a polyamory forum. On said forum, a couple joined recently who live in town. The husband of the couple and I messaged back and forth a little and the conversation sort of dropped off. The day after feeling so horrid about having been broken up with J for 3 months, I had this strong sense hit me that basically said "Screw it, let's get a life going." Nevermind that my therapist has been threatening to not see me until I do. So, ok, I know I have at least one thing in common with these two. I sent a message asking them to come to my place for dinner. They passed on dinner at my place since it was a first meeting, but agreed to meet me elsewhere.
Now I admit, I had a feeling about this couple. I couldn't figure why exactly, but I wanted to meet them when they first appeared. At that time I just wasn't up to meeting anyone though.
I was nervous, but excited, all afternoon Friday and all day Saturday. I was just blown away when I was shown a picture of them. Not only did they look awesome, but there was a ... I don't know what to call that feeling. I only know that I was even MORE excited about meeting them.
We met up and I swear I have never in my life felt so immediately at ease around any one person, much less around two people. We talked for four and a half hours. When the place we met was closing down, we came back to my place because we didn't want to stop talking. We have so much in common it's just uncanny!
She was raised in a poly, pagan commune. He had experiences that led to a pagan form of belief. I didn't have to explain what I meant at every turn. They both believe in the primary relationship being recognized and respected, with boundaries set down clearly and early and being enforced. They both value honesty, even when it's uncomfortable. The ethics of dealing with other people in general are a complete match across the board.
We each told about how we ended up out here. We talked about random things and told funny stories and laughed and laughed. The conversation just kept going and going and I think if it hadn't turned to midnight where we were all starting to feel tired, we'd have talked until morning. We didn't DO anything ... we didn't go anywhere super special, there wasn't a specific activity we were meeting for, we just met up and totally enjoyed the evening.
After they left I ended up staying awake for another couple of hours because I just couldn't get over how amazing that was. When I did sleep, I only slept for about four hours, but woke feeling happy, refreshed, and still just blown away.
Then I got the happy surprise. They'd already written to me again. They had a great time to and want us to get together again soon.
Excuse me, I need to go dance around my home and giggle and grin some more! It's just the idea of meeting TWO people who have SO much in common with me! I don't have to pretend away ANYTHING about me! Do you know how much that just ROCKS!?
The best part of it, for me, I couldn't have thought up a better couple to fall in with. Will there be a friendship? Oh very likely. Will there be more than a friendship? Who knows!? (WHO CARES?!?) It's entirely possible as far as I can see. Let's just say that if things continue on such a positive track, I won't have much reason to be saying no. I admit, I'm kinda attracted to them both. Kinda ... *chuckle* ... ok, so yeah, attracted to both of them in a lot of ways. At the same time, like I said, it's not "OMG LOVE!" It's more of a "WOW! These two are AWESOME! I wanna know MORE!"
There are so many signs that the gods had a hand in this that I'm thinking very cautiously. Given the state of mind I've been in, it'd be far too easy to just up and decide "Oh! I'm saved!" or something stupid. It'd be too easy to rush things along in my excitement and miss signs of trouble. At the same time I keep looking at the things that I've been told in card readings that were done for me, looking at the sense of what others had about this event, at how things came about, and well, I can't deny, even if all we're going to be is really great friends, I'm thinking that the gods had to have had a little to do with orchestrating this one... and I'm thankful.
Nothing has been decided about when we'll get together again just yet. Well, aside from it clearly being a mutual desire to get together again.
I can't help thinking back to the couple I once dated, many many years ago... and wondering... is it possible that I'd find another couple I mesh with so well? Really possible?
I guess we'll find out!