Love
Have you ever thought about life? Like really sat down by yourself and continplated why you're here? Well of course you have. But what did you come up with? What did you think about that made you want to stay here? Is it really worth it? Appearently it is because you're reading this. I've been thinking about it for awhile and I can only come up with one thing. Love. Maybe not really love, but human interaction of the positive kind. Did you think about your family? Your friends? Did you ask yourself, if I was gone would they be sad? Would my parents through a fit of sadness? Of course that kept you here. Someone caring about you. Be it your mom, dad, friend, sibling, somebody. But what do you do if you have no one? If no one wants to talk to you? If no one wants to be with you? That's the way I feel at this moment in time. But it's not true...I know my friends love me. I know my family loves me. I just can't get over this feeling though. This feeling of nothingness. I know no one wants to hear this crap so I'll make it short. I like someone but she has a boyfriend. This boyfriend treats her like crap. He yells at her, dragging her down to the point of suicide. I quietly wait there by her side to pick her up. I tell her he doesn't mean it. That tomorrow things will be perfect again. But then they aren't. And Im still there by her side holding out my hand. Waiting. And nothing ever happens. She still goes back to him. Because why? Because of love. They say they love each other, but there's no trust, no understanding between them. Nothing. She tells me she wishes that she never broke up with me. But still her and her boyfriend are together having their merry time. I now realize that I'll never take his place. So I give up. Even though she Never felt the same way about me, I still feel as if I've lost my true love. I feel that we're meant for each other, but I can't do anything about it. So I type this out because no one out there that I think loves me is anywhere to be found. So you, lucky you, got to hear my rant. I'm gonna go back to thinking now and hopefully I come back. Lol. Nighty night peoples.
Jeff
Jeff