Roll on
This week really hasn't quite worked out properly, at any point. Everything seemed to be misaligned and while nothing terrible or catastrophic happened, it just kinda sucked.
Right now I have a brain banging headache, courtesy of the 2 vodka's I had after what I suspect will be a weekly ritual of painful IT Networks tutorials. God dammit, I hate that subject. I hate it because the whole time I am thinking "I DO NOT GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT ANY OF THIS SHIT". When I'm in that mentality, I am really stubborn and antagonistic. I do feel sorry for the people who have to deal with it, honest.
Also aside from the headache I having keeping a lovely staccato upstairs in my cranium that the going for a drink gave me, I also got the most awful case of lonely-itous. Being lonely comes in phases, normally passing more than staying but right now I am feeling the gloom and the sadness associated. And I'm out of books, this is how to starve the loneliness - books, dvds, tv, strange obsessions... Always have something nearby to lose yourself in before the loneliness digs it's claws in. I found myself on the back deck, throbbing head in hands feeling the tears just about to break when BumBum decides he simply must kiss me right now. He is so great sometimes, letting me know that I have him. Hey at least my dogs love me and are dying to be with me 24 hrs a day. This loneliness will pass and I'll be content again. Just sort of knocked me sideways...
And I'm out of milk. Damn.
Why can't my chiropractor answer his phone so I can book in for Monday and be rid of the pain I have in my hips? Quite literally I was barely able to walk today.
Anyway I'll leave with this, the latest Lady Sov. I should hate the way the Cure song was gutted but, it's Lady Sov... what can I do?
I'm so human (yeah yeah)
And it's ok for me to feel this way (yeah yeah)
I'm still human (yeah yeah)
it's ok for me to feel this way (yeah yeah)
Doesn't it feel much better when you've had a better day than yesterday?
Right now I have a brain banging headache, courtesy of the 2 vodka's I had after what I suspect will be a weekly ritual of painful IT Networks tutorials. God dammit, I hate that subject. I hate it because the whole time I am thinking "I DO NOT GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT ANY OF THIS SHIT". When I'm in that mentality, I am really stubborn and antagonistic. I do feel sorry for the people who have to deal with it, honest.
Also aside from the headache I having keeping a lovely staccato upstairs in my cranium that the going for a drink gave me, I also got the most awful case of lonely-itous. Being lonely comes in phases, normally passing more than staying but right now I am feeling the gloom and the sadness associated. And I'm out of books, this is how to starve the loneliness - books, dvds, tv, strange obsessions... Always have something nearby to lose yourself in before the loneliness digs it's claws in. I found myself on the back deck, throbbing head in hands feeling the tears just about to break when BumBum decides he simply must kiss me right now. He is so great sometimes, letting me know that I have him. Hey at least my dogs love me and are dying to be with me 24 hrs a day. This loneliness will pass and I'll be content again. Just sort of knocked me sideways...
And I'm out of milk. Damn.
Why can't my chiropractor answer his phone so I can book in for Monday and be rid of the pain I have in my hips? Quite literally I was barely able to walk today.
Anyway I'll leave with this, the latest Lady Sov. I should hate the way the Cure song was gutted but, it's Lady Sov... what can I do?
Click to viewI'm so human (yeah yeah)
And it's ok for me to feel this way (yeah yeah)
I'm still human (yeah yeah)
it's ok for me to feel this way (yeah yeah)
Doesn't it feel much better when you've had a better day than yesterday?