Tomorrow is my birthday
This has got to be one of the worst starts to my birthdays in a while.
Workwise, my team has not stabilised. The new help we had in January has left, and now I'm shouldering both the responsibilities of a manager and work. It's killing me slowly.
And it's destroying my progress on my studies. To be fair though, there's not much to destroy in the workplace. I have let work interfere with my studies, and now I'm not too sure about how to get out. In hindsight, this is probably the wrong path I have taken.
Well, at home, my mom went down with covid-19 on Friday, followed by my dad and brother on Saturday. My cousin went down on Monday, and now he's walking around in the living room without a care in the world. While still being positive. And I have been making an effort to take care shuffling between the hotspots trying not to get things contaminated, trying to deliver the food and keeping control. Trying to ensure I don't go down a second time with covid which would put me further behind at work. And I'm not feeling too good right now, slightly worried I will come down with covid-19 tmr; since I am supposed to be going out, probably will test myself tomorrow noon in case I am positive.
Sigh.
I am so lost at the moment. But I guess at least I know that I'm lost because I'm trying to go somewhere, it's just a matter of figuring out the point to settle on. I think some painful decisions have to be made.